getra
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Over the past few weeks I’ve started to realize something. My whole life I have chased one thing really, and that is to fit in. That is not possible. Not with my tiny frame, not with my shit hormones (450 ng/dL jfl), not with my face, not with my build, not with my race. It’s no wonder why my mental took a shit on itself ever since middle school. I wasn’t made for this world. I have little to no friends. Even to the ones I do have I’m disposable which I’ve already seen one to many times. Literally zero respect in public. Grocery stores, social events, even the fucking drive thru, I’m seen as a lower being by nearly everyone. I was bullied relentlessly throughout teen years and I took all of it in, knowing I’m realistically inferior. Never even came close to having a gf, KHHV for nearly 20 years now. 20 fucking years. I have missed out on everything and it was inevitably my fate to. Now I’m building a car to even gain any bit of clout to make up for my subhuman self being just for some sort of social connection which even then I cannot do right. I have been the jestermaxxer of every social situation, I’m pretty much the clown people keep around to laugh at. My life is a joke and I wasn’t meant for this world honestly. If I were to choose between this life and being a caveman, I’d probably choose to latter because I’d truly know my hierarchy in life and die off sooner. Fuck genetics. With that being said, I already have an insight of what I’ll be in the coming future, fucking nothing, a nobody that’s even despised by other nobodies. Everything I do is seen as a joke, no one believes in me and it all comes down to my fucking bones (and dick under the sheets ngl). It was hard coming to terms of reality but I think I’m ready to accept it 
Inb4 “dn rd”
Idc hold my dick
Inb4 “dn rd”
Idc hold my dick
