alien
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A chubby cute redhead messaged me on Bumble and called me a cutie. This was actually the second time we matched and talked with each other. Back in June we first matched. But then she seemed to lose interest in me. Either because I was very autistic and socially anxious/awkward in video chat. Or because she found a Chad.
But then 2 months later when we reset our accounts and I posted a new selfie where I lost some body fat %, she matched and messaged me again. Maybe she got with a Chad before and he pumped n dumped her. And I'm her second string. lmao.
Thing is my Chinese FWB had told me she wanted to be bf/gf so she is my girlfriend now. And my Chinese gf said that she is going to try taking the GO Bus (commuter bus) to see me next week instead of me driving 2 round trips (since she can't drive or host. She lives 40 km away from me. The Greater Toronto Area is huge).
She is not a looker by PSL standards and I sometimes wonder if people in public think I'm with her "because I can't get a white girlfriend." (you can get doxxed and fired for openly saying this to someone in public in 2019 though).
But when my dick is hard and we have sex, I like looking down at her with my sweat drenching her face and jet black hair with her chinky little eyes closed while I'm dicking her down. I think she looks good when I'm fucking her. And I like looking down at her body and my bare white dick entering her asian pussy, being coated in her juices, when I'm fucking her. Obviously I much prefer the view when I was fucking my PSL ex Yogapants.
Like I feel a sense of contentment with my Chink gf. Even though I could do better if I continued to put in the effort and self-improve. She was the only woman who was truly eager for me in the last 2 months. I've had girls call me hot, cute, handsome, etc. But none of them thirsted for me like the Chink did. And many of these girls who called me hot treated me like shit as soon as they found a better option anyways. Whereas the Chink is constantly insecure about her position in the relationship.
The redhead has already shown herself to be fairweather in the past. Being cold towards me in the past. Probably because a Chad came along. I don't get the sense that she is loyal. Whereas the Chink has shown undying loyalty to me as her White God. Even though she is hypergamous going for a guy like me, she was the only girl in these 2 months who was truly nice to me. So I feel like she deserves my BWC. On the second date she cuddled with me in bed for like 1.5-1.75 hours until I got hard (I was waiting for the Cialis to kick in. I forgot to take my Cialis before hand) instead of getting up and leaving like the Filipina from 7 weeks ago.
After getting ghosted on, flaked on, used by women as a personal Uber, used as a foodie date, after women have just lost interest in me, etc. I feel like she deserves my BWC and affection. And loyalty. I don't want to cheat on her. If money were no object, I would give her a eurasian daughter and colonize her ovaries in the name of the Portuguese Empire and Roman Catholic church (my Chinese gf is Catholic herself so she is colonized already technically). She deserves it.
If it was Yogapants coming back into my life instead of that redhead, this wouldn't even be a discussion. I would go to Yogapants immediately. But I would feel guilty going for this redhead.
But then 2 months later when we reset our accounts and I posted a new selfie where I lost some body fat %, she matched and messaged me again. Maybe she got with a Chad before and he pumped n dumped her. And I'm her second string. lmao.
Thing is my Chinese FWB had told me she wanted to be bf/gf so she is my girlfriend now. And my Chinese gf said that she is going to try taking the GO Bus (commuter bus) to see me next week instead of me driving 2 round trips (since she can't drive or host. She lives 40 km away from me. The Greater Toronto Area is huge).
She is not a looker by PSL standards and I sometimes wonder if people in public think I'm with her "because I can't get a white girlfriend." (you can get doxxed and fired for openly saying this to someone in public in 2019 though).
But when my dick is hard and we have sex, I like looking down at her with my sweat drenching her face and jet black hair with her chinky little eyes closed while I'm dicking her down. I think she looks good when I'm fucking her. And I like looking down at her body and my bare white dick entering her asian pussy, being coated in her juices, when I'm fucking her. Obviously I much prefer the view when I was fucking my PSL ex Yogapants.
Like I feel a sense of contentment with my Chink gf. Even though I could do better if I continued to put in the effort and self-improve. She was the only woman who was truly eager for me in the last 2 months. I've had girls call me hot, cute, handsome, etc. But none of them thirsted for me like the Chink did. And many of these girls who called me hot treated me like shit as soon as they found a better option anyways. Whereas the Chink is constantly insecure about her position in the relationship.
The redhead has already shown herself to be fairweather in the past. Being cold towards me in the past. Probably because a Chad came along. I don't get the sense that she is loyal. Whereas the Chink has shown undying loyalty to me as her White God. Even though she is hypergamous going for a guy like me, she was the only girl in these 2 months who was truly nice to me. So I feel like she deserves my BWC. On the second date she cuddled with me in bed for like 1.5-1.75 hours until I got hard (I was waiting for the Cialis to kick in. I forgot to take my Cialis before hand) instead of getting up and leaving like the Filipina from 7 weeks ago.
After getting ghosted on, flaked on, used by women as a personal Uber, used as a foodie date, after women have just lost interest in me, etc. I feel like she deserves my BWC and affection. And loyalty. I don't want to cheat on her. If money were no object, I would give her a eurasian daughter and colonize her ovaries in the name of the Portuguese Empire and Roman Catholic church (my Chinese gf is Catholic herself so she is colonized already technically). She deserves it.
If it was Yogapants coming back into my life instead of that redhead, this wouldn't even be a discussion. I would go to Yogapants immediately. But I would feel guilty going for this redhead.
