Bewusst
dead inside
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yet lazy and full of stupid excuses not to do things and neglect or postpone my responsibilities. I wish I could go back in time to before my last botox treatment which took my health away from me within minutes. I would do many things different. Spend more time with my family, go outside more often, finish getting my driver license, look for a better apartment, get a job and ldar less, wasting my time despite being healthy. Be more grateful for my life and health.
I don't know whether I'll get through this; I live alone and no one would notice if I died in my apartment. Things are very uncertain at the moment and it's getting progressively harder to do anything. I can barely breathe or walk, doing the groceries is extremely difficult and there's nothing I can do about it. The only thing I know is if I get better, if I do survive this, which may take several months or even years, I'm gonna do many things different. Life is too precious to waste it ldaring and neglect the people that care about you, including yourself. The Chinese word for crisis has two meanings, danger and opportunity. I sincerely hope I'll be able to overcome the former and take the latter. Whatever the outcome may be, I deserve where I am and I'm responsible for it. But I don't hate myself for it. I'm human, I make mistakes.
I have a message for any of you with good health: be grateful for it, support your family and those who care about you and most importantly, don't neglect yourself. You may think your life sucks but trust me, nothing and absolutely nothing sucks as much as being truly sick. Being ugly sucks, having no social circle sucks but all that is nothing compared to being ill or disabled. You have a choice, make something of it while you still can. You'll get old soon enough and might not be able to do the things you want anymore.
I don't know whether I'll get through this; I live alone and no one would notice if I died in my apartment. Things are very uncertain at the moment and it's getting progressively harder to do anything. I can barely breathe or walk, doing the groceries is extremely difficult and there's nothing I can do about it. The only thing I know is if I get better, if I do survive this, which may take several months or even years, I'm gonna do many things different. Life is too precious to waste it ldaring and neglect the people that care about you, including yourself. The Chinese word for crisis has two meanings, danger and opportunity. I sincerely hope I'll be able to overcome the former and take the latter. Whatever the outcome may be, I deserve where I am and I'm responsible for it. But I don't hate myself for it. I'm human, I make mistakes.
I have a message for any of you with good health: be grateful for it, support your family and those who care about you and most importantly, don't neglect yourself. You may think your life sucks but trust me, nothing and absolutely nothing sucks as much as being truly sick. Being ugly sucks, having no social circle sucks but all that is nothing compared to being ill or disabled. You have a choice, make something of it while you still can. You'll get old soon enough and might not be able to do the things you want anymore.