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Some of you guys might know me Im one of the older posters here (im 22) and Im not as active lately because im trying to be better and overusing this forum is only bringing me depression, here is what I learned from the past 4 months that I relocated and tried to speak with people from deep of my soul.
At first I was kinda discouraged Im currnently around junkies, stoners, alcocholics and people who do all kinds of selfdestructing shit, so trying to reason with my ego that they arent all that bad was hard at first but It brings me a great joy of trying to talk with people truthfully, im learning more about how mind works.
So far out of 160 people that are in my workplace (warehouse) I found 4 that I can talk more openly without being laughed at, at first it was kinda scary to open myself, but I figured out that its better to face my fears of rejection than to live a meaningless life, feeling of conquering my fears and being able to help others is great.
I ain't the smartest one on this forum or in the world but im smart enough to help others, years of sitting alone in my room and learning are everyday brought to use almost everyday and I finaly feel like im achiving something, I found a pourpose in life (and a meaning trough it) other than doing harm im actually helping people who had it worse than me in life. I was able to drag 1 guy away from suicide what was the best feeling in my life.
Im not done yet, im still weak and dumb but Im at least 0.1% better than I was yesterday. Hope some of you will take my knowledge and use it wisely, I ain't a great writer but I belive that you can get my point.
Feel free to discuss the topic in here or in priv. I'm at your service.
Some of you guys might know me Im one of the older posters here (im 22) and Im not as active lately because im trying to be better and overusing this forum is only bringing me depression, here is what I learned from the past 4 months that I relocated and tried to speak with people from deep of my soul.
At first I was kinda discouraged Im currnently around junkies, stoners, alcocholics and people who do all kinds of selfdestructing shit, so trying to reason with my ego that they arent all that bad was hard at first but It brings me a great joy of trying to talk with people truthfully, im learning more about how mind works.
So far out of 160 people that are in my workplace (warehouse) I found 4 that I can talk more openly without being laughed at, at first it was kinda scary to open myself, but I figured out that its better to face my fears of rejection than to live a meaningless life, feeling of conquering my fears and being able to help others is great.
I ain't the smartest one on this forum or in the world but im smart enough to help others, years of sitting alone in my room and learning are everyday brought to use almost everyday and I finaly feel like im achiving something, I found a pourpose in life (and a meaning trough it) other than doing harm im actually helping people who had it worse than me in life. I was able to drag 1 guy away from suicide what was the best feeling in my life.
Im not done yet, im still weak and dumb but Im at least 0.1% better than I was yesterday. Hope some of you will take my knowledge and use it wisely, I ain't a great writer but I belive that you can get my point.
Feel free to discuss the topic in here or in priv. I'm at your service.