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Hello guys. Been lurking here for a while now but been too lazy to contribute with anything
so I've always been a somewhat average guy, now a first year student in college 400 miles from home (in Norway)
(long text) ok so basically the thing is I'm a soon to be 25yo dude with minimal exposure with girls. Right, so currently I think I'm like 5 PSL, 1.85m in height, still a NW0 with the same density I had since I was a child I guess, skin looks good because I have been nazi with cold-water washing and moisturisers for some years now. Everyone says I look 19-20 with 22 being the oldest guess. When I tell normies my real age they become quite surprised tbh.
In terms of 2020 I've done quite a bit of leanmaxxing (cardio) and fake tan. Also spent a lot of money on clothes which I really started to do in like early 2018
so with that being said, here I can just try giving a life summary: to begin with, junior high school is where I first swallowed the blackpill, tired of school, got bullied for being a chubby guy with a shitty haircut, never talked to girls.
High school: was still a chubby gamer, didn't give a fuck about appearance and attended all-guys classes for two years straight.
NEET: had my first year at 17 (worked only a little bit), only from 18-19 and 22-23 I went to schools to complete HS and the latter was some kind of travelling school.
To summarize; all my years of being out of school fucked me up and coming from a smaller town I never really had much opportunities these last years to begin with. I remember having opportunities to attend class parties the year I was 18-19 but I never went for some reason (this was after I had lost some weight aswell)
the first time I legit went to a party and nightclub is last year, however I became a NEET again after the following summer because I didn't apply to uni yet, then yeah ofc corona happened and my goal was to lean and tanmax while I was home.
Then college happened and I've been quite NT since it started, we didn't have restrictions here for the first 2 months so I was drunk and hung out with my friend group every weekend. The 2nd weekend was approached by a blonde angelic type of girl with around 1.5k followers on IG, and there was this friend of hers who started snapping me for weeks after the party aswell, both were quite drunk though. Next weekend the first girl asks me if I'm out and less than 30mins after she sees me again, we're in my bed kissing and that's how I lost my kissless status lol
I thought she lived alone so I went to her place and she took off her bh, first time I touched a girl's boobs aswell, but her parents were home and I was quite drunk so I didn't lose my virginity... later discovered that she got in a ltr and I proceeded deleting her off snap just because...
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if you've been reading all that text you probably noticed that I lived an incel's life, and tbf I've built up endless frustration of never being able to fulfill basic human needs sex & oxytocin over these years which I will never get back.
I feel like I'm slowly waking up though but society doesn't care about my past, but what I know is they care about my age, so I've been thinking about two options:
1. is it worth it making a new IG at age 25? I know I don't atleast look like a grown-up man yet (or feel like one) but I just can't wrap my head around the fact it's only 5 years until 30s and I feel like it would be lame to care about it at that age? anyways if I make one I can probably only get about 100 followers (until I would start socialmaxing next year when virus slows down)
2. been thinking about not bothering with it because I have some studies next term which requires consistent work in order not to fail, my hobbies would then be running, more time for pc gaming and I guess the occasional parties, where I add new people on snap.
The 2. option requires that I put some effort into Tinder, like currently I've tried with selfies taken at my room but I don't look too good in them. My plan is to get really, really lean and then go for some fake tan again by March'ish, I will have a friend with me and try taking some decent pics (he is into IG) sitting on a nice restaurant, wearing a collar shirt, or I guess some other NT photo, whatever.
I have to drop like 5 kgs and I'm already quite lean at 77 kg so yeah that's some sort of plan I have
What is a bit frightening to see however is how experienced all the young women here seems, just by simply having a look on Tinder gives you a clear picture of how professional most of them look and overall living a life that is 10x better than any guy other than chad's. I feel like I need to find a much younger girl because of how little experience I have; this is part of the reason I want to have some decent pics on there to seem "more normal".
However I catfished and my competition is pretty scarce, I estimate about 70% of guys just having shitty pics taken on their room. I also hate the thought of being seen as a lazy guy especially when every woman out there has hundreds of NT pics taken of them
what should I do? am I too late for Instagram and going to more social events, and what should I post there? I think I can become high-tier normie at best so it kinda makes sense to have one, I've been thinking if I get to above 200+ followers I could set it to private. I met a gl dude at college who has it like that. On the other hand I really need to focus on my studies so I could yeah, get a job I guess... (with the second option of becoming a NEET again) also still don't have a driver's license.
Going with just tinder seems like less struggle and more mature, but I feel I'm being limited. Any thoughts? and how over is it for me (oldcel)
so I've always been a somewhat average guy, now a first year student in college 400 miles from home (in Norway)
(long text) ok so basically the thing is I'm a soon to be 25yo dude with minimal exposure with girls. Right, so currently I think I'm like 5 PSL, 1.85m in height, still a NW0 with the same density I had since I was a child I guess, skin looks good because I have been nazi with cold-water washing and moisturisers for some years now. Everyone says I look 19-20 with 22 being the oldest guess. When I tell normies my real age they become quite surprised tbh.
In terms of 2020 I've done quite a bit of leanmaxxing (cardio) and fake tan. Also spent a lot of money on clothes which I really started to do in like early 2018
so with that being said, here I can just try giving a life summary: to begin with, junior high school is where I first swallowed the blackpill, tired of school, got bullied for being a chubby guy with a shitty haircut, never talked to girls.
High school: was still a chubby gamer, didn't give a fuck about appearance and attended all-guys classes for two years straight.
NEET: had my first year at 17 (worked only a little bit), only from 18-19 and 22-23 I went to schools to complete HS and the latter was some kind of travelling school.
To summarize; all my years of being out of school fucked me up and coming from a smaller town I never really had much opportunities these last years to begin with. I remember having opportunities to attend class parties the year I was 18-19 but I never went for some reason (this was after I had lost some weight aswell)
the first time I legit went to a party and nightclub is last year, however I became a NEET again after the following summer because I didn't apply to uni yet, then yeah ofc corona happened and my goal was to lean and tanmax while I was home.
Then college happened and I've been quite NT since it started, we didn't have restrictions here for the first 2 months so I was drunk and hung out with my friend group every weekend. The 2nd weekend was approached by a blonde angelic type of girl with around 1.5k followers on IG, and there was this friend of hers who started snapping me for weeks after the party aswell, both were quite drunk though. Next weekend the first girl asks me if I'm out and less than 30mins after she sees me again, we're in my bed kissing and that's how I lost my kissless status lol
I thought she lived alone so I went to her place and she took off her bh, first time I touched a girl's boobs aswell, but her parents were home and I was quite drunk so I didn't lose my virginity... later discovered that she got in a ltr and I proceeded deleting her off snap just because...
---
if you've been reading all that text you probably noticed that I lived an incel's life, and tbf I've built up endless frustration of never being able to fulfill basic human needs sex & oxytocin over these years which I will never get back.
I feel like I'm slowly waking up though but society doesn't care about my past, but what I know is they care about my age, so I've been thinking about two options:
1. is it worth it making a new IG at age 25? I know I don't atleast look like a grown-up man yet (or feel like one) but I just can't wrap my head around the fact it's only 5 years until 30s and I feel like it would be lame to care about it at that age? anyways if I make one I can probably only get about 100 followers (until I would start socialmaxing next year when virus slows down)
2. been thinking about not bothering with it because I have some studies next term which requires consistent work in order not to fail, my hobbies would then be running, more time for pc gaming and I guess the occasional parties, where I add new people on snap.
The 2. option requires that I put some effort into Tinder, like currently I've tried with selfies taken at my room but I don't look too good in them. My plan is to get really, really lean and then go for some fake tan again by March'ish, I will have a friend with me and try taking some decent pics (he is into IG) sitting on a nice restaurant, wearing a collar shirt, or I guess some other NT photo, whatever.
I have to drop like 5 kgs and I'm already quite lean at 77 kg so yeah that's some sort of plan I have
What is a bit frightening to see however is how experienced all the young women here seems, just by simply having a look on Tinder gives you a clear picture of how professional most of them look and overall living a life that is 10x better than any guy other than chad's. I feel like I need to find a much younger girl because of how little experience I have; this is part of the reason I want to have some decent pics on there to seem "more normal".
However I catfished and my competition is pretty scarce, I estimate about 70% of guys just having shitty pics taken on their room. I also hate the thought of being seen as a lazy guy especially when every woman out there has hundreds of NT pics taken of them
what should I do? am I too late for Instagram and going to more social events, and what should I post there? I think I can become high-tier normie at best so it kinda makes sense to have one, I've been thinking if I get to above 200+ followers I could set it to private. I met a gl dude at college who has it like that. On the other hand I really need to focus on my studies so I could yeah, get a job I guess... (with the second option of becoming a NEET again) also still don't have a driver's license.
Going with just tinder seems like less struggle and more mature, but I feel I'm being limited. Any thoughts? and how over is it for me (oldcel)
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