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RazzySpazzy
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Lurked this forum since June last year. It gave me hope that I could ascend. Dieted hard, keto intermittent fasting etc. Cardio everyday. Walks turned into runs. Pumped iron or boxed 6 days a week ontop of that. Lost 70lbs of fat in about 8 months. Probably more since I gained muscle while losing. New haircut, new wardrobe, grew out my beard to fraud an angular chin. Skin care routine, teeth whitening etc The works. Everything went to shit last July. All that I had missed out on in life gave me a mental breakdown. I was progressing and doing well in work, school and the gym for months. I underestimated my progress and told myself It was nothing. Stress from where my life was going to go. Where I would be in 10 yrs. I had to change majors before I started maxxing since I was a videogame addict and did not care about life. When I was ascending looking at my age increasing and still not having my degree was very hard. I'm still early 20's still but I will be mid-late 20's when I graduate. People treated me differently when I was lean. Some girls checked me out openly. For example I was in an elevator and a random girl and her friend started talking to me. "Oh Heloooo!", Other time a girl bought me coffee and asked me go out with her again. I refused at that time since I was a mess mentally.
Ontop of all this a girl I liked was horrific to me when I finally mustered up the courage to talk to her. I won't get into details but it was bad. She was kinda my crush for a few yrs and the thought of going to talk to her and show her my progress was a huge motivating factor for me. In a way it gave me hope. I could endure anything.
I'll do things differently this time.
Ontop of all this a girl I liked was horrific to me when I finally mustered up the courage to talk to her. I won't get into details but it was bad. She was kinda my crush for a few yrs and the thought of going to talk to her and show her my progress was a huge motivating factor for me. In a way it gave me hope. I could endure anything.
I'll do things differently this time.