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Tagged vent so don’t expect good content or whatever this is the only place I can say this stuff.
I’m 16, 5’7.25 or 171 cm (autist precision I know) morning height, and curry (dad Dravidian, mom North Indid).
I’ve probably grown 1? Maximum 2cm in the last year and a half. My knee (proximal tibia, distal femur) growth plates are already closed, the doc said I can get maybe 1 cm from them max. I already hit a growth spurt a few years ago so it’s very unlikely I’ll even reach 5’9, which is still gigashort (women are giants nowadays).
I can skinmaxx, but I have bad hormonal acne and for some reason Differin use has caused a purge making it worse. Like my sister, I can do everything possible to overcome acne and discoloration but my skin will still look bad. I’ll try nonetheless but it’s only a minor PSL increase. Also, no face for your height.
Gymmaxxing is infinitely harder with my subhuman muscle building capability and fat distribution. It’s a misconception that people make similar muscle gains. After nearly 8 months of consistent (legitimately no long breaks) gymmaxing and nutrition... I’m still weaker and smaller than people who never even lift. Furthermore, I got my subhuman dad’s fat distribution (Dravidians store up to 30% more fat cells in the abdomen) which makes sense because there have been periods where my body is lean, with like 10 veins popping out from my arms without a pump, but still no abs at all (yes I train abs daily too). I legit need to go auschwitzmaxxing to look good.
I have gyno, which makes my nipples look disgusting and makes my torso look even worse.
My lower third and cheekbones are actually above average, but curry eye area and disgusting skin (acne + periorbital hyperpigmentation).
I legit want to rope because I see no plausible way out of this. Inb4 “Go to Taban and Paley.” Problems with that:
- Parents won’t pay for this stuff.
- Future medschoolcel so I will living on peanuts until like 35-40.
- Doesn’t change my genetics.
Theoretically, if I do these surgeries (which I can’t just explained), and I get a 3.5 PSL girl, I wouldn’t be able to not tell her because it feels like I’m lying by withholding key info.
“Why are our kids short, Ocelot?”
“Oh yeah, I was actually 5’7, I broke my bones in two and made myself 5’10. I also wear contact lenses, have gotten my eyes reshaped, and my dick operated on.”
Legit screw this clown world, genetics, foids, and everything. Not a day passes without me waking up and being reminded of my size because of how big everything else is. First think I think about (more like cope about) when I wake up is if I’ve grown taller.
I don’t know why, sometimes I’m so motivated while looksmaxxing with the means I have, despite seeing 0 returns from anything. Nothing I put effort into changing has changed.
Anyway I have to go and cope with my crappy home gym.
I’m 16, 5’7.25 or 171 cm (autist precision I know) morning height, and curry (dad Dravidian, mom North Indid).
I’ve probably grown 1? Maximum 2cm in the last year and a half. My knee (proximal tibia, distal femur) growth plates are already closed, the doc said I can get maybe 1 cm from them max. I already hit a growth spurt a few years ago so it’s very unlikely I’ll even reach 5’9, which is still gigashort (women are giants nowadays).
I can skinmaxx, but I have bad hormonal acne and for some reason Differin use has caused a purge making it worse. Like my sister, I can do everything possible to overcome acne and discoloration but my skin will still look bad. I’ll try nonetheless but it’s only a minor PSL increase. Also, no face for your height.
Gymmaxxing is infinitely harder with my subhuman muscle building capability and fat distribution. It’s a misconception that people make similar muscle gains. After nearly 8 months of consistent (legitimately no long breaks) gymmaxing and nutrition... I’m still weaker and smaller than people who never even lift. Furthermore, I got my subhuman dad’s fat distribution (Dravidians store up to 30% more fat cells in the abdomen) which makes sense because there have been periods where my body is lean, with like 10 veins popping out from my arms without a pump, but still no abs at all (yes I train abs daily too). I legit need to go auschwitzmaxxing to look good.
I have gyno, which makes my nipples look disgusting and makes my torso look even worse.
My lower third and cheekbones are actually above average, but curry eye area and disgusting skin (acne + periorbital hyperpigmentation).
I legit want to rope because I see no plausible way out of this. Inb4 “Go to Taban and Paley.” Problems with that:
- Parents won’t pay for this stuff.
- Future medschoolcel so I will living on peanuts until like 35-40.
- Doesn’t change my genetics.
Theoretically, if I do these surgeries (which I can’t just explained), and I get a 3.5 PSL girl, I wouldn’t be able to not tell her because it feels like I’m lying by withholding key info.
“Why are our kids short, Ocelot?”
“Oh yeah, I was actually 5’7, I broke my bones in two and made myself 5’10. I also wear contact lenses, have gotten my eyes reshaped, and my dick operated on.”
Legit screw this clown world, genetics, foids, and everything. Not a day passes without me waking up and being reminded of my size because of how big everything else is. First think I think about (more like cope about) when I wake up is if I’ve grown taller.
I don’t know why, sometimes I’m so motivated while looksmaxxing with the means I have, despite seeing 0 returns from anything. Nothing I put effort into changing has changed.
Anyway I have to go and cope with my crappy home gym.
