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Since I was a teen, I've been treated like garbage by both, girls and guys. I was laughed at because of my social akwardeness, mocked for being weird, and some girls treated me in a pretty desinterested way. No one really respected me, and laughed at my expense. Latelly (when I was 16), girls began to call me ugly behind of my back, treat me as if I was a creep, and some people avoided me for being weird (I'm autistic, so it makes sense. Some of the persons that labelled me as weird, tried to speak to me, but I'm weird, honestly). I was judged as stupid, without even talking, as creepy por looking a lot at people (autism + TOC is kinda shit). This is the introduction. On to the topic.
I finished HS, and was about to enter college when I was 18. I began to live in a flat with 2 friends, a girl and a guy. The first week was cool, but I noticed something. They soon began to have a social circle (we weren't studying the same college grade), and I was alone. I couldn't talk to no one because I didn't know how, and no one talked to me (I didn't even like the grade). I began to isolate myself from everyone and began to rot in the flat, to fall into alcoholism, etc. My friends began to ignore me, and treated me like if I was a stranger in my own flat. I was invisible.
I moved to a community college (like a fraternity), and the same happened to me. Almost no one talked to me, couldn't make any friend, and began to fall into bad diet, alcoholism and depression (there were days in which I didn't sleep). Everyone left me alone and were uninterested in talking to me (even when I tried). My mother started to worry about my health, and I dropped from college. People keep saying that autism is a superpower... What? Autism, mixed with bad looks, makes me to be miserable. I can't talk to people and no one talks to me. Anyways, I'm studying a course in my town, and live with my parents. For the next year, I want to study something else in the capital of my country. I don't want the same to happen to me again, specially now, that I'm blackpilled. How should I begin to be more social?
I can't talk to people because I act nervous; I don't know about what to talk about and about how to do it.
I finished HS, and was about to enter college when I was 18. I began to live in a flat with 2 friends, a girl and a guy. The first week was cool, but I noticed something. They soon began to have a social circle (we weren't studying the same college grade), and I was alone. I couldn't talk to no one because I didn't know how, and no one talked to me (I didn't even like the grade). I began to isolate myself from everyone and began to rot in the flat, to fall into alcoholism, etc. My friends began to ignore me, and treated me like if I was a stranger in my own flat. I was invisible.
I moved to a community college (like a fraternity), and the same happened to me. Almost no one talked to me, couldn't make any friend, and began to fall into bad diet, alcoholism and depression (there were days in which I didn't sleep). Everyone left me alone and were uninterested in talking to me (even when I tried). My mother started to worry about my health, and I dropped from college. People keep saying that autism is a superpower... What? Autism, mixed with bad looks, makes me to be miserable. I can't talk to people and no one talks to me. Anyways, I'm studying a course in my town, and live with my parents. For the next year, I want to study something else in the capital of my country. I don't want the same to happen to me again, specially now, that I'm blackpilled. How should I begin to be more social?
I can't talk to people because I act nervous; I don't know about what to talk about and about how to do it.
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