OptimusMaxxer
nature is blackpilled
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I am undiagnosed professionally but I am pretty sure I suffer from OCD. I have to repeat words in my head over and over again until I essentially forget about this word and some new word comes to mind. Those words can be names or some things, it all depends on what I want to do or have. For example: (since this is a Chad worship forum I will bring up the case with Brad Pitt) I see Brad Pitt in a movie and I want to look like him and even though I know I will never look that good I still must repeat his name in my head countless time in the off chance that for some reason this makes me more like Brad Pitt. Also, it's similar to games I want to play. If I play some video game I have to repeat its name during playtime in order to somehow get good at it. I know it sounds retarded and I know it's purely an irrational construction of my mind but I can't help it. I have been battling it my whole life and it got better over time but not by much. I also developed maladaptive daydreaming and socialization problems from the trauma of constantly fighting those obsessions. It's sad and I want to know who if anyone from this form can at least a little bit relate.