blackazure88
Rotmaxxer - WARRIOR OF LIGHT
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Been coping really well with weed recently. I've been going to my local park almost everyday and smoking weed with my friend. My park looks so terrible in the winter, and my town smells like it's rotting. When the high hits, it feels like I'm in hell.
After every smoke, I go back home and watch video game retrospectives till I pass out, then wake up to eat, fall asleep and do it all over again the next day. I feel so purposeless but I don't think I care anymore about anything. About being lean, about ascending, about money, girls. Nothing. I don't really care anymore and it's making me feel a type of way about it. The lack of ambition and drive I mean.
I've been feeling really uncertain about the future too, particularly what next year has in store. I know it's completely over for me cuz I've tried everything. Pushed the envelope, did my best and nothing worked out. Got lean, got in shape, changed my clothes and got out there but I'm still rotting in this shit town.
At least I'm high.
After every smoke, I go back home and watch video game retrospectives till I pass out, then wake up to eat, fall asleep and do it all over again the next day. I feel so purposeless but I don't think I care anymore about anything. About being lean, about ascending, about money, girls. Nothing. I don't really care anymore and it's making me feel a type of way about it. The lack of ambition and drive I mean.
I've been feeling really uncertain about the future too, particularly what next year has in store. I know it's completely over for me cuz I've tried everything. Pushed the envelope, did my best and nothing worked out. Got lean, got in shape, changed my clothes and got out there but I'm still rotting in this shit town.
At least I'm high.
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