darkness97
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i fucked up things with a girl a long time ago. i just had a nightmare about her again last night. it saddens me but i don't think i will everr get over her. i have yet to find someone who i like as much as her. she is always on the back of mind and follows me around everyday. i don;t know why but it persists. i did my best to try and be with her without being a psychopath. it didn't work. i sacrificed and lost so much just because it took me a long time to cope with what happened.
this morning i have made the acceptance that i may never get over it and will live with this for the rest of my life. i've tried literally everything to get over it. and yet still just when i think i'm getting better it comes back again. i;ve logically approached it from so many angles and i just can't do it. i can't let it go. i hate myelf for this and i hate life fo this. I will choose to be single and hung up on one person for all time.
how long do i have to fucking wait this out. people come to me for advice all the time yet i'm the one who needs it the most. i seriously doubt a psychiatrist can actually help me at this point. i started posting about her literally 3 years ago. and still am to this day.
FUCK THIS LIFE.
this morning i have made the acceptance that i may never get over it and will live with this for the rest of my life. i've tried literally everything to get over it. and yet still just when i think i'm getting better it comes back again. i;ve logically approached it from so many angles and i just can't do it. i can't let it go. i hate myelf for this and i hate life fo this. I will choose to be single and hung up on one person for all time.
how long do i have to fucking wait this out. people come to me for advice all the time yet i'm the one who needs it the most. i seriously doubt a psychiatrist can actually help me at this point. i started posting about her literally 3 years ago. and still am to this day.
FUCK THIS LIFE.