alien
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I think that sedentary lifestyle (particularly not lifting weights), high body fat % and not getting laid makes you more prone to BBC cuckold fantasies and homoeroticism/homosexuality? I used to be a notorious BBC cuck for years. Yet I rarely watch BBC cuckold porn anymore. I used to fantasize about being the white girl getting pounded by BBC too. I used to legit jack off and get turned on flirting with BBC online while pretending to be a white girl on dating sites. I have thought about transitioning MTF or crossdressing more than once before.
Since mid-late May, I cleaned up my diet. Then since mid-July, I hit the gym. And then in August I started getting laid again. Right now I'm fucking this 43 year old chubby Korean thot.
I was 160+ lbs for almost all my adult life. I'm 37 now. After I lost the fat in my face, I noticed I had a Chad face back in like July/August. I actually have abs now. Though I am very lean at the moment. I weighed in at 133 lbs this morning (I am only 167cm/5'6" evening height but still). And then I started getting women calling me hot, sexy, cute, asking me for shirtless pics. I actually got down all the way to 128.14 lbs (7-day average, 126.4 1-day low) back in late September before I started bulking up this month.
Now I very rarely jerk off. I jerked off solo to orgasm like twice since like early August. And I think once, maybe twice to BBCs fucking Asian women for some reason. But that's about it. And that was only after this 25 year old Filipina/Japanese girl I hooked up with a few times ghosted me. Potentially because I was way too autistic/socially awkward for her to handle. So I started feeling like shit and didn't feel alpha anymore. Ever since I started seeing the Korean girl, I haven't jerked off. I only cum for her.
Is it the lifting weights/resistance training that is making me more masculine in personality?
Is it the low body fat %?
Is it the sexual success?
Having a Chad face?
I find that I gravitate more towards wanting to be a BBC rather than wanting to get pwnd by a BBC now. When I get a Korean thot begging for my thick white cock and talking about how my cock feels so good, I feel masculine. Like a Manlet Chadlite at the very least.
Since mid-late May, I cleaned up my diet. Then since mid-July, I hit the gym. And then in August I started getting laid again. Right now I'm fucking this 43 year old chubby Korean thot.
I was 160+ lbs for almost all my adult life. I'm 37 now. After I lost the fat in my face, I noticed I had a Chad face back in like July/August. I actually have abs now. Though I am very lean at the moment. I weighed in at 133 lbs this morning (I am only 167cm/5'6" evening height but still). And then I started getting women calling me hot, sexy, cute, asking me for shirtless pics. I actually got down all the way to 128.14 lbs (7-day average, 126.4 1-day low) back in late September before I started bulking up this month.
Now I very rarely jerk off. I jerked off solo to orgasm like twice since like early August. And I think once, maybe twice to BBCs fucking Asian women for some reason. But that's about it. And that was only after this 25 year old Filipina/Japanese girl I hooked up with a few times ghosted me. Potentially because I was way too autistic/socially awkward for her to handle. So I started feeling like shit and didn't feel alpha anymore. Ever since I started seeing the Korean girl, I haven't jerked off. I only cum for her.
Is it the lifting weights/resistance training that is making me more masculine in personality?
Is it the low body fat %?
Is it the sexual success?
Having a Chad face?
I find that I gravitate more towards wanting to be a BBC rather than wanting to get pwnd by a BBC now. When I get a Korean thot begging for my thick white cock and talking about how my cock feels so good, I feel masculine. Like a Manlet Chadlite at the very least.
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