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This is my first time posting, or ever really opening up about this issue for that matter, but after an all night binge, which has left me in a very bad state of mind (always does), I felt it'd be helpful to vent about what myself and many others are suffering through.
DISCLAIMER: For anybody who has never experimented w/ sissy hypno porn, DON'T. The rabbit hole goes much deeper; it is the heroin of porn and pure unadulterated evil; as I'm certain that anybody else who has suffered through this addiction could attest to. In light of this, I understand that from a third person perspective, it may seem over the top, as "porn is porn", to an extent your right and I'd agree, but what's so diabolical about this genre is that it preys on your insecurities and leads you to question your self-identity, and sexual orientation, among other things, by way of bombarding your subconscious w/, often times, thousands of overlapping subliminal messages. In fact, what's scarier is that many of the professional grade videos are subjected to mandatory legal disclaimers, which warns the viewer of the potential dangers and long lasting or possibly permanent effects of hypnosis. Thus, in this post, I will try my best to shed some light on how this addiction has left much of my life in shambles, to spread awareness and hopefully find some common ground from others who have/are suffering. If you haven't gone through this, I'd still love to here some insight from your own experiences! Though, since i know it may seem foreign to some (atleast it was to me), please try to be courteous
I first started watching pornography around the age of 8-10 (early puberty) on youtube b/c of blocks, so I was limited to girls kissing and (what became my first fetish) foot worship videos, which weirdly were all over the site at the time. I watched porn throughout puberty which was never quite vanilla -((possibly due to starting so young, and a relatively strict Catholic upbringing, which i think lead to a great deal of shame w/ porn starting at a young age??? Maybe? Idk--- I should say, however, that I am thankful for my faith, as it has been the one thing which has strengthened me through all this, and i firmly believe will ultimately be the thing which will carry me through to the end, I believe the same holds true for everyone, I think that you have to have faith, faith in something bigger than yourself, whatever that may be, in order to make meaningful change))- It started w/ lesbian porn soon escalating to various forms of lesbian dom. and ultimately escalating to bestiality for a breif period, which was more or less the last straw, and thus I eventually stopped some time late in my senior year. Things were going great after high school; I felt confident, had a girlfriend, was social, and had a couple great friend groups, and a good job. Tough after a while, idk when, I slowly started to get back into pornography, and soon after I accidentally came across my first sissy hypno porn video, and when i PMO'd to it, It provided a dopamine release like no other, and I was immediately hooked- which, i figure, is due to it's unique nature being hypnosis aimed at controling, degrading, and addicting its viewers, forcing them into compromising positions and ways of thinking, which are at a stark contrast to their own core values; and ultimately, the reason why this dehumanizing approach is SO effective, dangerous and addictive is that it rewards the viewer with unlimited nuisance; and it's because of nuisance that our porn interests continually escalate, as it becomes a never ending chace for something different something more exciting.
In the beginning, the porn had a negligible impact on me, and even though I felt that it could be more harmful than other porn, the euphoric rush was what kept me coming back. I also started out by avoiding the more intrusive professional videos, but being porn, it escalated, and I have now gotten to the point where I'll be exploring subreddits, finding videos, and preparing my session (which can last an entire day edging, because as soon as it ends there is an inevitable wave of deep shame), as the videos with multiple tabs. Over the course of about 3 year now, I have lost most of my friends (partially just growing apart)- but also because I just started to feel so uncomfortable around them and started making excuses not to go out, and just felt out of palce(especially after a binge) constantly worrying about making sure I sound and act normal; I have become incredibly anti-social; I haven't had a single successful relationship; I received a DUI just before my 21st; have lost all self-esteem; started to perform poorly in school; can't look people even my own family in the eyes, and worst of all I have even started to feel uncomfortable around my own neices and nephews. My parents just think that I've had a hard time coping w/ my DUI (which isn't totally wrong, kansas DUI laws are brutal), and nobody knows what's really been the problem this whole time. I am also starting to worry that my older brother and maybe sister might think I'm gay, because I haven't been in a relationship, and because whenever I have to be social after a binge I am a complete mess, w/ no confidence, unable to hold a conversation, or let alone try to be social w/ a girl.
Possible trigger words ahead...
Notice. I am straight, I have always been straight, but these hypnosis videos are made with the purpose of sissifying and emasculating the viewer, ultimately trying to convince them to live a trans lifestyle, become a submissive girl, or to turn them Gay/Forced-bi, etc., etc.
They're pure evil, and there is a lot of interesting speculation as to their origin, since they came out of nowhere, and the production quality on some of the videos would require professionals and several months to make a single video.
Anyways, I have made some progress as of late, and have started to make it down to once every three days, and have made it a point to remain busy, but I just feel like everytime I start to make progress I just shoot myself in the foot, like last night.
Anyways, sorry for the long post, thanks for making it to the end. I will be praying for all of those who are caught in the snares of this terrible addiction.
DISCLAIMER: For anybody who has never experimented w/ sissy hypno porn, DON'T. The rabbit hole goes much deeper; it is the heroin of porn and pure unadulterated evil; as I'm certain that anybody else who has suffered through this addiction could attest to. In light of this, I understand that from a third person perspective, it may seem over the top, as "porn is porn", to an extent your right and I'd agree, but what's so diabolical about this genre is that it preys on your insecurities and leads you to question your self-identity, and sexual orientation, among other things, by way of bombarding your subconscious w/, often times, thousands of overlapping subliminal messages. In fact, what's scarier is that many of the professional grade videos are subjected to mandatory legal disclaimers, which warns the viewer of the potential dangers and long lasting or possibly permanent effects of hypnosis. Thus, in this post, I will try my best to shed some light on how this addiction has left much of my life in shambles, to spread awareness and hopefully find some common ground from others who have/are suffering. If you haven't gone through this, I'd still love to here some insight from your own experiences! Though, since i know it may seem foreign to some (atleast it was to me), please try to be courteous
I first started watching pornography around the age of 8-10 (early puberty) on youtube b/c of blocks, so I was limited to girls kissing and (what became my first fetish) foot worship videos, which weirdly were all over the site at the time. I watched porn throughout puberty which was never quite vanilla -((possibly due to starting so young, and a relatively strict Catholic upbringing, which i think lead to a great deal of shame w/ porn starting at a young age??? Maybe? Idk--- I should say, however, that I am thankful for my faith, as it has been the one thing which has strengthened me through all this, and i firmly believe will ultimately be the thing which will carry me through to the end, I believe the same holds true for everyone, I think that you have to have faith, faith in something bigger than yourself, whatever that may be, in order to make meaningful change))- It started w/ lesbian porn soon escalating to various forms of lesbian dom. and ultimately escalating to bestiality for a breif period, which was more or less the last straw, and thus I eventually stopped some time late in my senior year. Things were going great after high school; I felt confident, had a girlfriend, was social, and had a couple great friend groups, and a good job. Tough after a while, idk when, I slowly started to get back into pornography, and soon after I accidentally came across my first sissy hypno porn video, and when i PMO'd to it, It provided a dopamine release like no other, and I was immediately hooked- which, i figure, is due to it's unique nature being hypnosis aimed at controling, degrading, and addicting its viewers, forcing them into compromising positions and ways of thinking, which are at a stark contrast to their own core values; and ultimately, the reason why this dehumanizing approach is SO effective, dangerous and addictive is that it rewards the viewer with unlimited nuisance; and it's because of nuisance that our porn interests continually escalate, as it becomes a never ending chace for something different something more exciting.
In the beginning, the porn had a negligible impact on me, and even though I felt that it could be more harmful than other porn, the euphoric rush was what kept me coming back. I also started out by avoiding the more intrusive professional videos, but being porn, it escalated, and I have now gotten to the point where I'll be exploring subreddits, finding videos, and preparing my session (which can last an entire day edging, because as soon as it ends there is an inevitable wave of deep shame), as the videos with multiple tabs. Over the course of about 3 year now, I have lost most of my friends (partially just growing apart)- but also because I just started to feel so uncomfortable around them and started making excuses not to go out, and just felt out of palce(especially after a binge) constantly worrying about making sure I sound and act normal; I have become incredibly anti-social; I haven't had a single successful relationship; I received a DUI just before my 21st; have lost all self-esteem; started to perform poorly in school; can't look people even my own family in the eyes, and worst of all I have even started to feel uncomfortable around my own neices and nephews. My parents just think that I've had a hard time coping w/ my DUI (which isn't totally wrong, kansas DUI laws are brutal), and nobody knows what's really been the problem this whole time. I am also starting to worry that my older brother and maybe sister might think I'm gay, because I haven't been in a relationship, and because whenever I have to be social after a binge I am a complete mess, w/ no confidence, unable to hold a conversation, or let alone try to be social w/ a girl.
Possible trigger words ahead...
Notice. I am straight, I have always been straight, but these hypnosis videos are made with the purpose of sissifying and emasculating the viewer, ultimately trying to convince them to live a trans lifestyle, become a submissive girl, or to turn them Gay/Forced-bi, etc., etc.
They're pure evil, and there is a lot of interesting speculation as to their origin, since they came out of nowhere, and the production quality on some of the videos would require professionals and several months to make a single video.
Anyways, I have made some progress as of late, and have started to make it down to once every three days, and have made it a point to remain busy, but I just feel like everytime I start to make progress I just shoot myself in the foot, like last night.
Anyways, sorry for the long post, thanks for making it to the end. I will be praying for all of those who are caught in the snares of this terrible addiction.
