BonesAndHarmony
Taking a break from the autism
- Joined
- May 29, 2019
- Posts
- 2,017
- Reputation
- 3,451
I literally just want get a gun and end it. For me this goes further than the blackpill. Because maybe I can't have girls but I still manage to cope with it somehow. But today's realization has no place for copes, it just showed me how over it is for me. I found a holiday job. Pretty interesting one that requires me to go to places that are a bit far away from home. Since I have no driving licence yet I have to go with "colleagues". Here comes the point of the story. They are young and extremely nt. I just can't cope when I see how they enjoy life. Having fun together, making jokes, listening to nt music (rap mainly), planning together to go to shisha bars. One of them was a Chad who looks like Orlando Bloom with moustache (for reference Pirates of the Caribbean). I fucking forgot that people can actually enjoy the company of others. During the whole time I just stood there barely saying something. This introverted personality is just terrible. Then I remembered that I wasted my teenage years in isolation and that I will never find real friends because of my autistic personality. It's just over. I'm a bitter old man in the body of a 20-year-old.