barettrealrx
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So few years ago i was becoming abused dog, in middle scol constantly picked on, even had my pants pulled down once and my shirt ripped, could never fucking catch a break, and i started thinking that al the bullies were christians (theyre slavs) and i realized that under christianity, they would be the ones going to heavn while i would be the one going to down , so i realized tgats not fair, and i said "If u cant beat them, then join em", so I became a christian, keep in mind this was also because i was a gymcel , and was a big follower of redpilled content (Keep in mind most of these redpilled libertarian white guys would prob cuck me thru jbw)
Anyways i became a christian, developed ocd, im atheist now but i constantly keep wottying whether christianity is true, after all all of my prayers were answered in one way or anotger, at leadt the ones i remember, and its difficult to cknvert back since i am convinced that if there is a true religion it iss probably christianity, but if i convert back "just to be safe" i will always have it on my mind that i will the only ine going to hevaen in my family, and i cannot live with that on my conscious, now it is reason why i am planning to use psychedelics to rid me of ocd, i cannot even fucking di something productive or do something enjoyable without thinking "oh what if christianity is true, then u are doung all this in vain"
No matter how much i try i will never be truly free, whether it be from picking on from otgher people or my thoughts, i will never have real peace again tbh
Anyways i became a christian, developed ocd, im atheist now but i constantly keep wottying whether christianity is true, after all all of my prayers were answered in one way or anotger, at leadt the ones i remember, and its difficult to cknvert back since i am convinced that if there is a true religion it iss probably christianity, but if i convert back "just to be safe" i will always have it on my mind that i will the only ine going to hevaen in my family, and i cannot live with that on my conscious, now it is reason why i am planning to use psychedelics to rid me of ocd, i cannot even fucking di something productive or do something enjoyable without thinking "oh what if christianity is true, then u are doung all this in vain"
No matter how much i try i will never be truly free, whether it be from picking on from otgher people or my thoughts, i will never have real peace again tbh