CAN'T BE ARSED

[blackazure88]

After diving deep into my mind and thinking about all the choices that lead me up to this point, all my social experiences, all my rejections, being strung along thinking I was gonna fuck but getting ghosted in the end, my deep obsessions with my past oneitis's, my porn addiction, being a true jester throughout my entire adolescence, my helicopter parents, my self hatred, my shit work ethic and my lack of consistency in everything....... I just can't be arsed anymore bro. Like I don't want anything to do with this fucking life, this shitty bug man negro existence.

I'm so fucking tired of being reminded of my failures online and irl, so close to being a normie but not quite making the fucking cut. So close to being Tyrone, but so far away from it. 23 and ain't got shit to show for it. I rot in my room watching YouTube videos all fucking day on bullshit I've already seen. I'm a jobless manchild with no prospects of my life getting better. I missed the train and lost my ticket.

I wish I died in my sleep so I don't have to wake up to see my ugly face. Fuck me and fuck you. Fuck this shit I'm done. I don't care about slaying I wanna fucking sleep forever. I'm cutting my dreads and becoming a monk in Tibet or some shit

 

[kebab]

Pop these niggas like a wheelie, nigga, you a silly nigga
In the hood with them Billy niggas and them Hoover niggas
You run up and they shootin' niggas, we ain't hoopin', nigga
No KB, you would lose a nigga, up that Uzi, nigga


@Vicious

 

[Ricky212]

See an escort

 

[blackazure88]

Pop these niggas like a wheelie, nigga, you a silly nigga
In the hood with them Billy niggas and them Hoover niggas
You run up and they shootin' niggas, we ain't hoopin', nigga
No KB, you would lose a nigga, up that Uzi, nigga


@Vicious

Tay K?

 

[kebab]

Tay K?

69

 

[blackazure88]

See an escort

Wouldn't change a damn thing bro

 

[blackazure88]

69

Fuck I'm so out of touch with rap, I don't even listen to that junk anymore

 

[Sprinkles]

damn Nigga you cutting your dreads? it’s that bad?

 

[Sanguinius]

I feel you, If I was tall my life would be wildy different

 

[blackazure88]

damn Nigga you cutting your dreads? it’s that bad?

Yeah mayn it's that bad. I'm really not getting shit out here. How can a in shape black man NOT slay???? Like bro I'm telling you, don't even get iois. But at this point, it is what it is. I'm tired of caring, tired of giving a fuck. Tired of it all. I'm cutting my dreads, getting back into the gym and just gonna go full on shcizo monk mode. Fuck it, not like I'm living for anyone or anything.

And it's not even just slaying, it's the not having friends thing too. People not responding to texts or leaving my shit on read..... fuck bro it's hard

 

[blackazure88]

I feel you, If I was tall my life would be wildy different

Yh man, life fucking sucks being a manlet