darkness97
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no idea why all of sudden i stopped caring about girls but i truly don't anymore. i thought it maybe be low T or something. but i truly don't care about dating anymore. i don't need to pretend to be aloof because i actually am. when i look into the future i don't imagine it being with a woman and children. i imagine doing research or work for a company. alone until death. travelling alone, and just being contained in solitary hobbies. that has now become my dream.
i now know what it feels like to be a true med student. all you really care about it studying/working. it's not even to reach some sort of financial goal, just the satisfaction of doing 'something' i enjoy.
women aren't bad at all. they're just not what i had expected them to be as a younger man. either i am too ugly, skinny, shitty hair or whatever. I never get to see the side that have men killing themselves for. the women i interact with are not worth the effort. not worth taking out on dates, and not worth falling for.
i miss the feeling of having a oneitis. the excitement and the worry about whether it would ever come to be. but, dating your oneitis and getting to know women for real has taught me that users blow women out of proportion.
i now know what it feels like to be a true med student. all you really care about it studying/working. it's not even to reach some sort of financial goal, just the satisfaction of doing 'something' i enjoy.
women aren't bad at all. they're just not what i had expected them to be as a younger man. either i am too ugly, skinny, shitty hair or whatever. I never get to see the side that have men killing themselves for. the women i interact with are not worth the effort. not worth taking out on dates, and not worth falling for.
i miss the feeling of having a oneitis. the excitement and the worry about whether it would ever come to be. but, dating your oneitis and getting to know women for real has taught me that users blow women out of proportion.