Sasuke177
I dreamt I was Hwei
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No matter what I do I can never become an androgynous prettyboy.
I have no noteable feminine features except the fact that my nose is SLIGHTLY upturned.
My gonial angle is 114-117, my bigonial width is 90% of my bizygomatic width, my masseters muscles are always bloated looking too so it looks even more square (brutal), and even my ramus is too long compared to my mandible (not recessed)
My brow ridge, my nose, my forehead slope, my eyebrows, my face shape, and to a lesser extent my eyes are all either within the MASCULINE ideal or too masculinized. My face gets carried by dimorphism, but I'm 5'9, average sized hands and small wrists so I have no masculine appeal either. It's so brutal that even seeing ugly masculine androgynous looking women on the bus that I would never fuck makes me cry on the way to uni.
I can't even enjoy sex anymore without having all my body hair shaved with no reflective surface present because I'm always reminded that I'll never look like Hwei. Only way I can cum is if I close my eyes and visualize everything from the third person and substitute myself out for Hwei, almost like I'm watching porn while I'm fucking (hard to explain). Women probably think I'm bipolar or practicing intermittent asexuality with how flaky I am. I'm not even ugly I'm just not an androgynous prettyboy. It's not even like I'm trans either I think women are so aesthetically uninteresting and boring I would kill myself If I turned into a woman. The only surgery I can do is a skull transplant, over. I must leave this place and rope immediately, I will never be cutecel.
I have no noteable feminine features except the fact that my nose is SLIGHTLY upturned.
My gonial angle is 114-117, my bigonial width is 90% of my bizygomatic width, my masseters muscles are always bloated looking too so it looks even more square (brutal), and even my ramus is too long compared to my mandible (not recessed)
My brow ridge, my nose, my forehead slope, my eyebrows, my face shape, and to a lesser extent my eyes are all either within the MASCULINE ideal or too masculinized. My face gets carried by dimorphism, but I'm 5'9, average sized hands and small wrists so I have no masculine appeal either. It's so brutal that even seeing ugly masculine androgynous looking women on the bus that I would never fuck makes me cry on the way to uni.
I can't even enjoy sex anymore without having all my body hair shaved with no reflective surface present because I'm always reminded that I'll never look like Hwei. Only way I can cum is if I close my eyes and visualize everything from the third person and substitute myself out for Hwei, almost like I'm watching porn while I'm fucking (hard to explain). Women probably think I'm bipolar or practicing intermittent asexuality with how flaky I am. I'm not even ugly I'm just not an androgynous prettyboy. It's not even like I'm trans either I think women are so aesthetically uninteresting and boring I would kill myself If I turned into a woman. The only surgery I can do is a skull transplant, over. I must leave this place and rope immediately, I will never be cutecel.