PointOfNoReturn
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I can't even complain about it to anyone because I live in a shithole and they are techically well off compared to everyone else. I have pectus excavatum as well as scoliosis causing uneven shoulders both of which are genetic and treatable when growing up, but instead I was blamed for causing it because of sitting on the computer a lot. I also have disc hernia on the lower back which I can trace back with almost complete gurantee to an incident which happened while working on a construction site that my father was developing (which I was all but forced to help with it) and he refuses to take responsibility or at least apologise for it. Also my parents constant demeaning remarks since the age of 5 have left me extremely akward, shy and introverted which in a small town makes it extremely hard to find a girlfriend. Since they have pretty much forced me to stay to "inherit" my family business which is failing slowly with no hope in sight due to the lack of workers in the area, its unlikely i will be able to eacape to the city like almost everyone from my class. I tried studying, but due to constant sabotage from my parents and potentially untreated ADHD, I havent been able to find work in software engineering which I studied on and off remotely due to covid while having to help with work often. Ive thought about studying business instead but my parents wont let me do it unless its remotely from my hometown while working a 7 to 4 job at my parents workplace(I get paid minimum wage by the way and that wont change for at least 10 more years). Also despite working my ass off, my father intends to leave at least 10% of the business to my sister despite her working as make up artist while living with her boyfriend in the capital who is well paid. I'm not looking for advice since but I want at least someone to know that all I feel now is anxiety, despair and anger at the world.
