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Kraken
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A couple of factoids about me,
I think when I turned 30 I realized that even if I lost weight, got out of my wheelchair, fixed my teeth and had a good shave and haircut I still wouldn't look very good so I just kind of gave up when the pandemic hit. I got a work from home job and I've probably left my apartment 10 times in the last 3 years.
I spend the vast majority of my time in solitude. My job doesn't require me to talk to people very often, I barely talk to my online friends or anyone else. I spend most of my time reading. I'm definitely working on trying to step out of my comfort zone and I want to leave the apartment but I can't bring myself to pass the threshold of the door. Honestly as much as I want to improve my life I feel like there isn't anything for me out there. I've spent my life trying to connect with other people and failing miserably and honestly I'm exhausted. The break since the pandemic is nice and my job has no plans to stop be a work from home job and I get everything need delivered here. Yeah being lonely and isolated sucks but it's better than being around people constantly and still being lonely.
TLDR; I'm an almost 35yo morbidly obese, ugly, wheelchair bound virgin
I weigh 407lbs. I have numerous health issues and have been on several medications where weight gain is a side effect. I'm actually off some now and have lost almost 20lbs in the past few months.
I was born via C-section so I have not even touched a vagina during birth. I have never touched a woman that wasn't my mother that I can recall. I have not so much as held a girl's hand. I am still awaiting my wizard powers.
I have never had a woman show any interest in me romantic or otherwise. I don't have many friends anyway and none of them are female.
The few friends I do have are all online. I've only had a few friends IRL when I was younger but I don't have any IRL friends now.
I haven't seen my penis without using a mirror in probably 10 years, maybe longer.
I don't really blame anyone else for my problems or the way my life is. I'm unfortunately self aware enough to know that I'm mostly in a prison of my own making but the sad thing is I actually prefer my life this way. Other people typically aren't very kind to me because of the way I look. Even if they don't say anything I'll see people shake their heads, surpress laughter or even point or take pictures occasionally. I'm definitely used to it by now but it's definitely been getting to me more i recent years.I actually haven't left my apartment in almost 3 months. I work from home, get my groceries delivered, pay my bills online etc. so I really don't have much reason to leave. I have not spoken to another human being in person in probably 2 months now. I haven't exactly been keeping track. My parents are my only real family but we never talk.
I think when I turned 30 I realized that even if I lost weight, got out of my wheelchair, fixed my teeth and had a good shave and haircut I still wouldn't look very good so I just kind of gave up when the pandemic hit. I got a work from home job and I've probably left my apartment 10 times in the last 3 years.
I spend the vast majority of my time in solitude. My job doesn't require me to talk to people very often, I barely talk to my online friends or anyone else. I spend most of my time reading. I'm definitely working on trying to step out of my comfort zone and I want to leave the apartment but I can't bring myself to pass the threshold of the door. Honestly as much as I want to improve my life I feel like there isn't anything for me out there. I've spent my life trying to connect with other people and failing miserably and honestly I'm exhausted. The break since the pandemic is nice and my job has no plans to stop be a work from home job and I get everything need delivered here. Yeah being lonely and isolated sucks but it's better than being around people constantly and still being lonely.
TLDR; I'm an almost 35yo morbidly obese, ugly, wheelchair bound virgin