MoggerGaston
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Did way too much MDMA ngl. Brain was completely fried yesterday.
I don't even know why I did it tbh. I was already feeling amazing and that made me 0 inhib and I kept taking more and more MDMA even though I didn't even feel like it did much anymore.
Brutal, but I survived. Yesterday was bad, but I survived and even got through 8 hours of wageslaving like some zombie.
Today is good again. It's a trade-off. One day I feel amazing, one day I feel shit. Is it worth it?
To me it is, but I could've used less MDMA and probably felt better the day after.
My brain was 'child-like' and everything was hitting me INTENSELY. I complimented like 20 people in one day.
Things I wouldn't notice or care about normally, like someone's shoes or hat, suddenly stood out to me like crazy. My brain was constantly getting these intense signals.
Same with music, everything was hitting me so hard. Songs sounded amazing.
You drink some beer and just the texture and feeling of the liquid in your throat and body is suddenly something you consciously notice and enjoy lol. It's so crazy.
My social situation is better than I thought.
I have fucked up my social reputation in my student housing. I have retreated socially and rot in my room, doing drugs. And everyone knows this.
Yet these people still seem chill with me and I was invited to 2 different parties yesterday. I am welcome.
All I had to do was show-up and people were all over me, hyping me up, vibing.
And while on MDMA, my own vibe was unstoppable too. I fitted right in, in fact I was one of the moggers this night. The life of the party - vibe.
I didn't slay, but I didn't care at all honestly. Didn't even try much.
The party I went to, had a lot of girls there, but they were basically 'in my social circle' because I knew the guys who hosted the party (student-dorm housemates). So I wasn't seen as a threat, etc. It was very easy to socialize with the girls there, you are basically already 'part of the gang' instead of seen as an outsider.
All the hot girls there already had boyfriends JFL, but we would still dance, cuddle, flirt, etc. I would have hot girls with boyfriends grinding on me on the dance-floor and that was just 'partying' with no real intentions. Felt amazing, even though it wasn't necessairily sexual.
This is what normal social interaction looks like. Even people who haven't fucked/kissed in a year like me get to cuddle, flirt and dance with hot girls at parties, simply due to good vibes and chill social circle.
There were some frustrated guys there too, I get their vibe. But on MDMA I simply couldn't give a fuck honestly.
TL : DR
Had manic episode without MDMA, then used a lot more MDMA, then rotted for a day cuz my brain was fried, now I am back in business.
Mogs hard.
I don't even know why I did it tbh. I was already feeling amazing and that made me 0 inhib and I kept taking more and more MDMA even though I didn't even feel like it did much anymore.
Brutal, but I survived. Yesterday was bad, but I survived and even got through 8 hours of wageslaving like some zombie.
Today is good again. It's a trade-off. One day I feel amazing, one day I feel shit. Is it worth it?
To me it is, but I could've used less MDMA and probably felt better the day after.
My brain was 'child-like' and everything was hitting me INTENSELY. I complimented like 20 people in one day.
Things I wouldn't notice or care about normally, like someone's shoes or hat, suddenly stood out to me like crazy. My brain was constantly getting these intense signals.
Same with music, everything was hitting me so hard. Songs sounded amazing.
You drink some beer and just the texture and feeling of the liquid in your throat and body is suddenly something you consciously notice and enjoy lol. It's so crazy.
My social situation is better than I thought.
I have fucked up my social reputation in my student housing. I have retreated socially and rot in my room, doing drugs. And everyone knows this.
Yet these people still seem chill with me and I was invited to 2 different parties yesterday. I am welcome.
All I had to do was show-up and people were all over me, hyping me up, vibing.
And while on MDMA, my own vibe was unstoppable too. I fitted right in, in fact I was one of the moggers this night. The life of the party - vibe.
I didn't slay, but I didn't care at all honestly. Didn't even try much.
The party I went to, had a lot of girls there, but they were basically 'in my social circle' because I knew the guys who hosted the party (student-dorm housemates). So I wasn't seen as a threat, etc. It was very easy to socialize with the girls there, you are basically already 'part of the gang' instead of seen as an outsider.
All the hot girls there already had boyfriends JFL, but we would still dance, cuddle, flirt, etc. I would have hot girls with boyfriends grinding on me on the dance-floor and that was just 'partying' with no real intentions. Felt amazing, even though it wasn't necessairily sexual.
This is what normal social interaction looks like. Even people who haven't fucked/kissed in a year like me get to cuddle, flirt and dance with hot girls at parties, simply due to good vibes and chill social circle.
There were some frustrated guys there too, I get their vibe. But on MDMA I simply couldn't give a fuck honestly.
TL : DR
Had manic episode without MDMA, then used a lot more MDMA, then rotted for a day cuz my brain was fried, now I am back in business.
Mogs hard.
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