ManletJordanBarrett
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I thought I’d do a little ramble post about my childhood as a group punching bag, the lowest SMV in my friend group, I was always the shortest, fattest, and ugliest of my friends when I was growing up (5th-11th grade) and I believe it severely impacted my self esteem, confidence, and social skills.
So I met my friends in 5th grade after moving into a new district, elementary school was fine for me, I was pretty popular and well liked, I got made fun of for my height sometimes but it was just teasing, some girls had crushes on me and I had many friends, however when I went into my new district I was completely unknown, and I had to make new friends. So I met my first 2 friends by jestermaxxing on the first day of school, I told them that I was a watermelon and acted like a retard, they found me amusing and welcomed me into their friend group. For the first year I knew them everything was fine, they were good friends to me and treated me well, however this all changed in 6th grade. This is when they started trolling me, I was a bit tubby around this time so they would always grab my man boobs and made me extremely insecure about my body, I eventually refused to be seen without a hoodie and never took my shirt off to go in the pool, keep in mind I wasn’t even fat, I had a small belly from eating snacks and some man boobs, but I wasn’t even overweight for my age and height. But yeah this time period still wasn’t that bad, it got far worse in junior high school.
So in 7th grade this is where the true hell begins, I was added to a group chat by my 2 friends and this is how I started to get to know my whole friend group, there was about 7 kids in the chat including me, and it didn’t take long for me to become the most hated. The fat jokes continued, the man boob grabbing became a daily occurrence, they would slap my neck and my head because I had a buzz cut, and they had a separate group chat that only excluded me and whenever I would find out about it they’d just make a new separate group chat without me. They also started making fun of my height because I pretty much stopped growing and got left behind in terms of height. I barely got invited anywhere to hang out with them but when I did, they would just beat me up and tease me the whole time, I mean they weren’t legit punching me because that would be too far, but I would get taken down, slapped up, etc.
Fast forward to high school and the torture continued, however some new methods were introduced, I started playing video games with them as I finally got an Xbox just to play with them (I previously had a ps4) and they made it a nightmare for me. I would get called trash and shit at every game I played, I’d get kicked out of lobbies, cursed out, they’d call me fat boy, annoying, and short, and whenever I tried to defend myself (I mostly stayed silent and just endured the treatment) the whole group would jump in and start making of me with even worse insults, so I tended to stay in my place. They also started making fun of me for being KHHV, and told me that I just have to be confident to get a girlfriend, despite them basically calling me subhuman for years. So yeah from 9th to 11th grade my friends would basically just insult me 24/7, exclude me, and beat me up.
Now we have reached the present day, I became black pilled around the middle of 11th grade and ascended over the summer, I also distanced myself away from my friends and spend my days rotting by myself scrolling through this forum. They treat me far better now because I am the best looking of the group, but I’m still a turbo manlet autist so I have no girlfriend. All of my friends have lost their virginity, and have girlfriends, jobs, money, and cars. I am still KHHV, broke, jobless, and I failed my road test three times. I am going to community college soon and as of now I am the least successful of my friends, I have absolutely nothing and they all life mog me. You’d think that the evil bullies would eventually lose in life and I’d surpass them, but life is no fairy tale.
So I met my friends in 5th grade after moving into a new district, elementary school was fine for me, I was pretty popular and well liked, I got made fun of for my height sometimes but it was just teasing, some girls had crushes on me and I had many friends, however when I went into my new district I was completely unknown, and I had to make new friends. So I met my first 2 friends by jestermaxxing on the first day of school, I told them that I was a watermelon and acted like a retard, they found me amusing and welcomed me into their friend group. For the first year I knew them everything was fine, they were good friends to me and treated me well, however this all changed in 6th grade. This is when they started trolling me, I was a bit tubby around this time so they would always grab my man boobs and made me extremely insecure about my body, I eventually refused to be seen without a hoodie and never took my shirt off to go in the pool, keep in mind I wasn’t even fat, I had a small belly from eating snacks and some man boobs, but I wasn’t even overweight for my age and height. But yeah this time period still wasn’t that bad, it got far worse in junior high school.
So in 7th grade this is where the true hell begins, I was added to a group chat by my 2 friends and this is how I started to get to know my whole friend group, there was about 7 kids in the chat including me, and it didn’t take long for me to become the most hated. The fat jokes continued, the man boob grabbing became a daily occurrence, they would slap my neck and my head because I had a buzz cut, and they had a separate group chat that only excluded me and whenever I would find out about it they’d just make a new separate group chat without me. They also started making fun of my height because I pretty much stopped growing and got left behind in terms of height. I barely got invited anywhere to hang out with them but when I did, they would just beat me up and tease me the whole time, I mean they weren’t legit punching me because that would be too far, but I would get taken down, slapped up, etc.
Fast forward to high school and the torture continued, however some new methods were introduced, I started playing video games with them as I finally got an Xbox just to play with them (I previously had a ps4) and they made it a nightmare for me. I would get called trash and shit at every game I played, I’d get kicked out of lobbies, cursed out, they’d call me fat boy, annoying, and short, and whenever I tried to defend myself (I mostly stayed silent and just endured the treatment) the whole group would jump in and start making of me with even worse insults, so I tended to stay in my place. They also started making fun of me for being KHHV, and told me that I just have to be confident to get a girlfriend, despite them basically calling me subhuman for years. So yeah from 9th to 11th grade my friends would basically just insult me 24/7, exclude me, and beat me up.
Now we have reached the present day, I became black pilled around the middle of 11th grade and ascended over the summer, I also distanced myself away from my friends and spend my days rotting by myself scrolling through this forum. They treat me far better now because I am the best looking of the group, but I’m still a turbo manlet autist so I have no girlfriend. All of my friends have lost their virginity, and have girlfriends, jobs, money, and cars. I am still KHHV, broke, jobless, and I failed my road test three times. I am going to community college soon and as of now I am the least successful of my friends, I have absolutely nothing and they all life mog me. You’d think that the evil bullies would eventually lose in life and I’d surpass them, but life is no fairy tale.
and then trying to defend yourself would just end in conflict and those guys would just put you back in your place.
it’s Rodrick
