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something bad happened recently and i felt really shit and suicidal the last 2 days.
i almost checked myself into the hospital or mental asylum to stop myself killing myself.
i had to ring the suicide hotline people and cried on the phone it was embarrassing but i felt realyyyyyy shit.
and ive had like 2 hours sleep in the last 3 days
but im trying to stay busy, studying for a certification
went to the gym early in the morning, did a workout, went in the jacuzzi, steam room, sauna, plunge pool where its really cold for 10 mins. dunked my head under the water for a few mins. i think thats good for u. really helps any inflammation in ur body.
talked with my chink foid, i think shes really done with me this time. i need to go back on dating apps
felt shit tonight not doing anything after studying. and my ldr filipina gf was asleep. so i went to see an escort
my ideal type is slim body, petite, white girl but with a deep dark tan. bleach blonde hair. maybe a few cute tattoos. nice lips
but at the agency no one good was on today but i found a blonde girl , 24yo , romanian but she was pale in the pics. not ideal but i thought fuck it i just want to feel good
but i showed up and she was my exact type. i asked if she had been on the sunbeds cos she was brown, and she said she just got back from holiday so she was really dark. petite, tiny waist, bleach blonde hair, fake boobs, cut tattoos , nice lips, blue eyes.
we had nice convo, felt a bit awkward at the start cos i cba to use my brain to think of things to talka bout with an escort. she was sexy AS FUCK
honestly the hottest girl ive ever fucked in my life. £90 for 30 mins.
also she said shes "from here" (in england) but her profile said romania. and she had a romanian accent. i asked her like 3 times where shes from, where is her homeland
but she wouldnt tell me, its like she was ashamed/insecure about it. she wanted to be a real white- british
and then she said "im not as white as you think"
but really she looks white
started off with kissing. got her to suck my dick.
ive been in a shit mood and really not horny. i couldnt get hard for like 5 minutes. only half.
despite shes the hottest girl i ever fucked.
i asked her if she showered cos i wanted to 69. but she got offended. and i had to explain why i asked if she showered. she thought i meant she was dirty or smelly or something but then she was okay again but that made me a bit soft
so i told her kiss me and i sucked on her boobs and looked at her tanned body while she touched my dick and i got hard
her boobs felt fucking weird. they were a bad job of fake boobs.
like the silicone was stuck to her rib cage, but her boobs skin was unattached to it so u could pull it away from the sillicone. bit weird
but it looked aesthetically good. u could just feel that tho when u grabbed them or sucked them.
fucked her missionary. looked in her eyes and we both smiled. she had really light blue eyes. but now i think back, i feel like it might be contacts cos she was maxxed out
then got her on top of me, slimness is so important man. so u can see their tiny waist bouncing on your dick and grab it. it feels insane. and her perky boobs. wish i couldve recorded it
then doggy, pulled her bleach blonde hair. her tiny waist looked amazing from this angle. then i cummed but still had like 10 mins left
she cleaned me then hugged for 10 minutes.
asked about my tattoo, said its really nice. asked for the guys name who did it, he was also romanian. got me to show his IG so she can take a pic
showed me her tiktok accoutn she had like 223k followers , just vids of her doing nothing getting hundreds of thousands of views
said she liked my hair, i just put highlights in it. obviously saying all these thngs cos its part of the service
but it still makes you feel good, gets you out the house if ur a lonely incel, empties your balls. get to chill with a hot af girl for a while and have her be your bitch
had a big hug and kiss at the door then i left
feel a bit better now but i think im going to need to go gym every day, stay busy all day, go to boxing 1on1 session every weekend, get back on tinder and find a new UK asian girl to fuck with so i can stop feeling suicidal hopefully that will make my mental health better
i almost checked myself into the hospital or mental asylum to stop myself killing myself.
i had to ring the suicide hotline people and cried on the phone it was embarrassing but i felt realyyyyyy shit.
and ive had like 2 hours sleep in the last 3 days
but im trying to stay busy, studying for a certification
went to the gym early in the morning, did a workout, went in the jacuzzi, steam room, sauna, plunge pool where its really cold for 10 mins. dunked my head under the water for a few mins. i think thats good for u. really helps any inflammation in ur body.
talked with my chink foid, i think shes really done with me this time. i need to go back on dating apps
felt shit tonight not doing anything after studying. and my ldr filipina gf was asleep. so i went to see an escort
my ideal type is slim body, petite, white girl but with a deep dark tan. bleach blonde hair. maybe a few cute tattoos. nice lips
but at the agency no one good was on today but i found a blonde girl , 24yo , romanian but she was pale in the pics. not ideal but i thought fuck it i just want to feel good
but i showed up and she was my exact type. i asked if she had been on the sunbeds cos she was brown, and she said she just got back from holiday so she was really dark. petite, tiny waist, bleach blonde hair, fake boobs, cut tattoos , nice lips, blue eyes.
we had nice convo, felt a bit awkward at the start cos i cba to use my brain to think of things to talka bout with an escort. she was sexy AS FUCK
honestly the hottest girl ive ever fucked in my life. £90 for 30 mins.
also she said shes "from here" (in england) but her profile said romania. and she had a romanian accent. i asked her like 3 times where shes from, where is her homeland
but she wouldnt tell me, its like she was ashamed/insecure about it. she wanted to be a real white- british
and then she said "im not as white as you think"
but really she looks white
started off with kissing. got her to suck my dick.
ive been in a shit mood and really not horny. i couldnt get hard for like 5 minutes. only half.
despite shes the hottest girl i ever fucked.
i asked her if she showered cos i wanted to 69. but she got offended. and i had to explain why i asked if she showered. she thought i meant she was dirty or smelly or something but then she was okay again but that made me a bit soft
so i told her kiss me and i sucked on her boobs and looked at her tanned body while she touched my dick and i got hard
her boobs felt fucking weird. they were a bad job of fake boobs.
like the silicone was stuck to her rib cage, but her boobs skin was unattached to it so u could pull it away from the sillicone. bit weird
but it looked aesthetically good. u could just feel that tho when u grabbed them or sucked them.
fucked her missionary. looked in her eyes and we both smiled. she had really light blue eyes. but now i think back, i feel like it might be contacts cos she was maxxed out
then got her on top of me, slimness is so important man. so u can see their tiny waist bouncing on your dick and grab it. it feels insane. and her perky boobs. wish i couldve recorded it
then doggy, pulled her bleach blonde hair. her tiny waist looked amazing from this angle. then i cummed but still had like 10 mins left
she cleaned me then hugged for 10 minutes.
asked about my tattoo, said its really nice. asked for the guys name who did it, he was also romanian. got me to show his IG so she can take a pic
showed me her tiktok accoutn she had like 223k followers , just vids of her doing nothing getting hundreds of thousands of views
said she liked my hair, i just put highlights in it. obviously saying all these thngs cos its part of the service
but it still makes you feel good, gets you out the house if ur a lonely incel, empties your balls. get to chill with a hot af girl for a while and have her be your bitch
had a big hug and kiss at the door then i left
feel a bit better now but i think im going to need to go gym every day, stay busy all day, go to boxing 1on1 session every weekend, get back on tinder and find a new UK asian girl to fuck with so i can stop feeling suicidal hopefully that will make my mental health better