ThatGuythattype
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I don't understand why we should keep living after a certain age, seeing ourself turning wrinkly, deteriorated, weak, impotent, unattractive, lifeless.
As of 23 I don't know what to look forward to. After each day I will only realise more and more of my lost potential and see more ways I have wasted my time. Also less energy and enthusiasm to even act on it. Having a conciousness is the worst thing about being human. Each day I'm staying alone in my apartment is theoretically wasted, but on the same time I feel good in the moment. Being 21/22 was an amazing feeling. Having an adultish brain while knowing you youth mog all of the oldcells and seeing your potential ahead was an insane feeling (in the moment), but now I know that the days of fun, carelessness is over. Now I can start counting my days, and regret my choices.
But then society.... I am so disagreeable over how humans have created many aspects of society, and have to be reminded of wars (too empathetic to not care)
It's fun living your life through others, but in same time you have to focus on self (hard)
I feel kinda on top of the world. Knowing 3 languages on a native level (mog everyone), being attractive with a perfect health, and being otherwise of the genetically elite.
I would love to give my experience of life out to more people. Give people my amazing health. If more people were like me, the world would be better in many ways. The only way, I can give it away to more people is through impregnating many women, but to do that I need the motivation and giving in to my animal inside. But it's an impossible act, because deep inside I know that I will never be satisfied and soon my existence will end.
As of 23 I don't know what to look forward to. After each day I will only realise more and more of my lost potential and see more ways I have wasted my time. Also less energy and enthusiasm to even act on it. Having a conciousness is the worst thing about being human. Each day I'm staying alone in my apartment is theoretically wasted, but on the same time I feel good in the moment. Being 21/22 was an amazing feeling. Having an adultish brain while knowing you youth mog all of the oldcells and seeing your potential ahead was an insane feeling (in the moment), but now I know that the days of fun, carelessness is over. Now I can start counting my days, and regret my choices.
But then society.... I am so disagreeable over how humans have created many aspects of society, and have to be reminded of wars (too empathetic to not care)
It's fun living your life through others, but in same time you have to focus on self (hard)
I feel kinda on top of the world. Knowing 3 languages on a native level (mog everyone), being attractive with a perfect health, and being otherwise of the genetically elite.
I would love to give my experience of life out to more people. Give people my amazing health. If more people were like me, the world would be better in many ways. The only way, I can give it away to more people is through impregnating many women, but to do that I need the motivation and giving in to my animal inside. But it's an impossible act, because deep inside I know that I will never be satisfied and soon my existence will end.