why was i more of a devout rotter before then i am now?

[lilith]

at 16 i literally didn't use social media, used an old mp3 which had like 100 songs, and rotted all day. i went school, came back, watched dvds and then slept. day after day. for like a good 2 years. i was even better at starving. i was completely hollow. wtf happened jfl. isn't the reverse supposed to happen. i should've been full of hope back then and rot hardcore now. im disappointed in myself tbh. has anyone else experienced this?

 

[Deleted member 32485]

they put stuff in your water

 

[lilith]

they put stuff in your water

aware

 

[kebab]

Red40 an yellow5-6

 

[deadmanwalking]

Red40 an yellow5-6

 

[kebab]

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