i cant believe ive rotted for this long and let myself decay

[Deleted member 23115]

Im so mentally ill ive gone from wanting to ascend to not giving a fuck and drowning in my own misery. I havent got sun in 5 years, barely eaten anything and my willingness to socialize and relate with others has gone down significantly. I had mates in school despite being ugly and i could effortlessly banter and befriend ppl when i wanted to. At the end of school tho, ppl started disliking me cuz i didnt wanna party or do any of that REAL social shit so they either cut me off or turned me into an acquaintance which started my downward spiral socially. Now i despise people which is a sign im extremely unhealthy. Yes i'm ugly af and normies are fags but im still a human being and im not naturally schizoid so its clear im extremely unhealthy. It is time i take life srsly.

 

[Deleted member 23115]

yea its over for me innit

even if i achieve a ltn sorta life ill still have constant cortisol from being ugly and then ill probably burnout and then rot for like 20 years

 

[Deleted member 23115]

yea making this thread is pointless

1. ppl will use this against me once i inevitably want to argue with ppl cause its fun
2. on this forum users who post this stuff are rare and if theyre popular ppl pity them more than anything
3. even fellow losers will prefer forum chads over me
4. most users are tiktokcels and will think im some mystical being for rotting for this long and they will comment shit which reflects this which will further cause me to have negative thinking which will make my life worse

 

[Nick.Harte]

You didn’t get any sunlight exposure in 5 years? Tf

 

[Deleted member 32973]

then do something to change it, i've didnt logged in over 2 weeks here and i cant even recognize more than 3 users most people are leaving this since they realize how much of a misery this is. see my thread about wasting time in online spaces

FOCUSING ONLINE SPACES OVER REAL LIFE IS SAD

There is no "cool" place for "based" people to hang out on the internet. There are reetards, shills and feds and various degenerates. No well-adjusted human uses the internet constantly this is just a fact of life and the sooner you return to reality, the better condition you will be in. the...

looksmax.org

 

[Nick.Harte]

yea making this thread is pointless

1. ppl will use this against me once i inevitably want to argue with ppl cause its fun
2. on this forum users who post this stuff are rare and if theyre popular ppl pity them more than anything
3. even fellow losers will prefer forum chads over me
4. most users are tiktokcels and will think im some mystical being for rotting for this long and they will comment

Most people won’t understand rotting unless they are subMTN.

 

[Deleted member 23115]

You didn’t get any sunlight exposure in 5 years? Tf

well its kinda an exaggeration but technically ive rotted for 5 years and for a lot of that i got no sun

i had periods where i got sun but especially recently ive got none

 

[Nick.Harte]

well its kinda an exaggeration but technically ive rotted for 5 years and for a lot of that i got no sun

i had periods where i got sun but especially recently ive got none

I’ve been rotting for months and it’s kinda hard to put yourself out there when u know that you will receive pretty much the same shitty subhuman treatment from people.

 

[Abhorrence]

yea making this thread is pointless

1. ppl will use this against me once i inevitably want to argue with ppl cause its fun
2. on this forum users who post this stuff are rare and if theyre popular ppl pity them more than anything
3. even fellow losers will prefer forum chads over me
4. most users are tiktokcels and will think im some mystical being for rotting for this long and they will comment shit which reflects this which will further cause me to have negative thinking which will make my life worse

i feel u bro
i understand the exact thought processes/feelings you are in rn

 

[Matthias8272]

You should ascend just for quality of life improvements, I doubt I'll have sex even years after surgeries

 

[Samsepioler]

im schizoid rahhh

 

[Tyrone06]

Aw hell nah

 

[Tyrone06]

Gawd damn

 

[recessedd]

Im so mentally ill ive gone from wanting to ascend to not giving a fuck and drowning in my own misery. I havent got sun in 5 years, barely eaten anything and my willingness to socialize and relate with others has gone down significantly. I had mates in school despite being ugly and i could effortlessly banter and befriend ppl when i wanted to. At the end of school tho, ppl started disliking me cuz i didnt wanna party or do any of that REAL social shit so they either cut me off or turned me into an acquaintance which started my downward spiral socially. Now i despise people which is a sign im extremely unhealthy. Yes i'm ugly af and normies are fags but im still a human being and im not naturally schizoid so its clear im extremely unhealthy. It is time i take life srsly.

just marry a fat chick and have some kids be happy. not over just gotta live a lower standard u might have though u deserved