flippasav
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Brutal to see that your this far behindTurning 29 last month set alarm bells off.
Most people around me have moved on with life - except me. What bothers me isn't the fact I'm single, but the fact that I had opportunities but never took them. The fact that major milestones of my life and prime time to meet someone and enjoy your youth won't return. I don't mind being this age, I just regret the uneventful path I've taken to get here.
It's like I was holding out for something, expecting someone, but they never came. I was sold the myth there is someone for everyone, and that everything will be fine at the end of the day. I've been told I'm in a better position than most people, and if uglier, poorer, shorter people are married and living a good life, I'll have no problems. All of this meant I never really even cared about being single nor actively did anything about it. Everyone around me suddenly found someone, it should happen to me right? Except it didn't. Nothing has changed. I'm still the same person, in the same situation. At one point I was told I'll find someone, next point I'm told time has pretty much ran out. My life ended at 18, just when it was supposed to get going. I did nothing but rot and the natural consequence is life got flash-forwarded. You create no memories, your thoughts and routine are cyclically inane and meaningless.
If I read what I just wrote above in my late teens I'd be in so much fear and denial it could ever happen. What I thought wouldn't happen has happened. It's the opposite of a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Tagging oldcels @Gengar @blackckatt @NewOneXY @Xangsane