Its over for me

[iitsnik]

It’s legitimately so over for me. I’m average at best, and I genuinely resent my parents so much for creating me. I know they look at me and don’t even know where to begin, I turned out like shit and have unfortunate genetics. My brother mogs me and it’s clear they favor him and treat him better. I can’t even enjoy my life because all I can think about is how ugly I am. I’ve tried to kill myself, I’ll try again in the future, I’m sure of it. My only hope is hardmaxxing but I don’t even think it’s worth waiting that long to save up for so many surgeries I would rather be dead. I’m filled with rage and constant suicidal thoughts, I miss my childhood where none of this shit even mattered to me.