Napoleon1800
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Took me some time to think and properly remember my dream from last night, but it was quite interesting, it was only my 3rd lucid dream, so I will share. BTW i do not remember all the things said word for word but I remember most because it was very vivid so there is some paraphrasing.
I was floating in a dark atmosphere, and even though there was just pure darkness under me, I was able to walk. I walked until I saw a metal table with two wooden chairs on either side. It was covered in a spotlight from above, and a tall, slender man with dark, long curly hair sat on the other side of the table, though his face was unrecognisable from this distance, as I walked closer, I saw that it was Richard Ramirez, the Nightstalker, his bones popping in the light, his T50 brown eyes dazzling with an evil glare, and his mouth stretched in an arrogant smirk. Clad in a black leather jacket, he stared deep into my eyes, inviting me to sit down. I did, and he leaned forward and said:
"[My Name], how are you?"
I responded with:
"I am good Mr Ramirez"
RR: "Hmm, you do not seem like it. You are troubled, your mind eats itself. Your thoughts are maggots on your joy, parasites on your mood. You smile to the outside world and act as if everything is fine, yet inside you are rotting, and the worms that are your emotions lay their eggs of poison inside, and it will just spread and spread and spread until the stench tears through your insides to the outside world and everyone will see what a diseased monster you are."
Me: "I don't know what to do"
RR: "Of course you don't. Your mind Is chained to the padlocks of society. Ever since childhood everyone from your parents to your family to your friends to your teachers to your idols, all of them forced the same junk of lies into you. You are fucked. All but in name clinically retarded. Enslaved. Your primal instincts are still there. You crave sex, you crave power, you crave respect, you crave love, everything that has been robbed of you to make you into a slave. Now it's simply a battle between your instincts and your socialisation. Most likely you will just end up as a submissive cuck who will have his dick cut off by a manlet Jew."
Me: "No. Please no, I don't want that."
RR: "So what do you want? Do you want to just fuck like a beast (he suddenly grabbed a white blonde JB from under the table and pulled his dick out and made her suck his dick) huh!? Is this all you want. Or maybe you want to dominate and control femoids whenever and however you wish, maybe even kill them (he forcefully pulled the girl off his dick and snapped her neck and threw her body down into the abyss) Hmm? Or maybe you want to dominate and mog other men? (He stood up and two manlet curries came out from under the table, their heads only reached up to his stomach. He pulled two knives and stabbed both in the back of the head, and sat back down). What do you truly want?"
Me: "I just want a girl that I can love, a girl I can cuddle with and kiss on some hill"
RR: "Retarded cuck. This is why only a few men deserve the glory, why most end up being crushed under the heels of femoids. Because you think femoids are capable of love and empathy. You believe in a myth made by femoids and the Jews to cuck men, to make them low t, to become emotional and fall victim to their tricks. Until you understand the truth, until you learn to see them as nothing but fuck flesh incapable of loving you, then you can reach your desires. They operate on lust for the most superior man. Love doesn't exist, there is no love, there is only fucking, violence and lust. Get that inside your head faggot. Every foid I raped loved it because they enjoyed being violently dominated by a high t male. They would've cheated on their "loving boyfriends" a thousand times just to have me fuck them like that again. So do you understand, [My name]?"
Me: "Yes Richard"
RR: "Good, finally you're learning. That is the first key to success in life. People are all animals, savage evil animals, that operate on the desires for power, beauty, lust, wealth, control and personal pleasure. Its engrained in their primal instincts. In order to make sure society doesn't collapse, the people at the time shoved morality down everyone's throats, to keep them contained, but you cannot suppress instincts completely. They still erupt and show themselves at times. Nevertheless, if you can unlock your natural way of thinking and your instincts, you will be able to one up others in almost every situation, because you will not be confined by the lies of morality. You will see that everyone is simply an aid or obstacle to your aims, and deal with them accordingly. That is how you reduce inhibition. That is how I won in life. That is how you can in life."
Me: "I understand"
RR: "You are a good kid, you are different to the plebs out there. I want to help you, you have potential. I see parts of me in you. Don't let yourself ever become complacent or depressed. Depression is a way to keep yourself enslaved. Either dominate and annihilate those around you or rebel fully, let go and enjoy life as you want it to be. It is your life, you must always be the one winning. Do you understand?"
Me: "Yea Richard, I understand."
RR: "Good kid".
He stood up (he brutally heightmogged me) and gave me a hug, and then I closed my eyes in his embrace.
I do not remember what happened after but eventually I woke up. I honestly do not know how to feel about this dream, I feel like my subconscious was projecting its thoughts via the character of Richard Ramirez, and many of the things the character said I inherently disagree with.
I was floating in a dark atmosphere, and even though there was just pure darkness under me, I was able to walk. I walked until I saw a metal table with two wooden chairs on either side. It was covered in a spotlight from above, and a tall, slender man with dark, long curly hair sat on the other side of the table, though his face was unrecognisable from this distance, as I walked closer, I saw that it was Richard Ramirez, the Nightstalker, his bones popping in the light, his T50 brown eyes dazzling with an evil glare, and his mouth stretched in an arrogant smirk. Clad in a black leather jacket, he stared deep into my eyes, inviting me to sit down. I did, and he leaned forward and said:
"[My Name], how are you?"
I responded with:
"I am good Mr Ramirez"
RR: "Hmm, you do not seem like it. You are troubled, your mind eats itself. Your thoughts are maggots on your joy, parasites on your mood. You smile to the outside world and act as if everything is fine, yet inside you are rotting, and the worms that are your emotions lay their eggs of poison inside, and it will just spread and spread and spread until the stench tears through your insides to the outside world and everyone will see what a diseased monster you are."
Me: "I don't know what to do"
RR: "Of course you don't. Your mind Is chained to the padlocks of society. Ever since childhood everyone from your parents to your family to your friends to your teachers to your idols, all of them forced the same junk of lies into you. You are fucked. All but in name clinically retarded. Enslaved. Your primal instincts are still there. You crave sex, you crave power, you crave respect, you crave love, everything that has been robbed of you to make you into a slave. Now it's simply a battle between your instincts and your socialisation. Most likely you will just end up as a submissive cuck who will have his dick cut off by a manlet Jew."
Me: "No. Please no, I don't want that."
RR: "So what do you want? Do you want to just fuck like a beast (he suddenly grabbed a white blonde JB from under the table and pulled his dick out and made her suck his dick) huh!? Is this all you want. Or maybe you want to dominate and control femoids whenever and however you wish, maybe even kill them (he forcefully pulled the girl off his dick and snapped her neck and threw her body down into the abyss) Hmm? Or maybe you want to dominate and mog other men? (He stood up and two manlet curries came out from under the table, their heads only reached up to his stomach. He pulled two knives and stabbed both in the back of the head, and sat back down). What do you truly want?"
Me: "I just want a girl that I can love, a girl I can cuddle with and kiss on some hill"
RR: "Retarded cuck. This is why only a few men deserve the glory, why most end up being crushed under the heels of femoids. Because you think femoids are capable of love and empathy. You believe in a myth made by femoids and the Jews to cuck men, to make them low t, to become emotional and fall victim to their tricks. Until you understand the truth, until you learn to see them as nothing but fuck flesh incapable of loving you, then you can reach your desires. They operate on lust for the most superior man. Love doesn't exist, there is no love, there is only fucking, violence and lust. Get that inside your head faggot. Every foid I raped loved it because they enjoyed being violently dominated by a high t male. They would've cheated on their "loving boyfriends" a thousand times just to have me fuck them like that again. So do you understand, [My name]?"
Me: "Yes Richard"
RR: "Good, finally you're learning. That is the first key to success in life. People are all animals, savage evil animals, that operate on the desires for power, beauty, lust, wealth, control and personal pleasure. Its engrained in their primal instincts. In order to make sure society doesn't collapse, the people at the time shoved morality down everyone's throats, to keep them contained, but you cannot suppress instincts completely. They still erupt and show themselves at times. Nevertheless, if you can unlock your natural way of thinking and your instincts, you will be able to one up others in almost every situation, because you will not be confined by the lies of morality. You will see that everyone is simply an aid or obstacle to your aims, and deal with them accordingly. That is how you reduce inhibition. That is how I won in life. That is how you can in life."
Me: "I understand"
RR: "You are a good kid, you are different to the plebs out there. I want to help you, you have potential. I see parts of me in you. Don't let yourself ever become complacent or depressed. Depression is a way to keep yourself enslaved. Either dominate and annihilate those around you or rebel fully, let go and enjoy life as you want it to be. It is your life, you must always be the one winning. Do you understand?"
Me: "Yea Richard, I understand."
RR: "Good kid".
He stood up (he brutally heightmogged me) and gave me a hug, and then I closed my eyes in his embrace.
I do not remember what happened after but eventually I woke up. I honestly do not know how to feel about this dream, I feel like my subconscious was projecting its thoughts via the character of Richard Ramirez, and many of the things the character said I inherently disagree with.
