There is something incredibly wrong with me mentally

[Avoidant]

There is no reason I should have the lifestyle that I do now. Hardly any friends (absolutely 0 in college), don't go out (never get invited), don't have a girlfriend, I just go to school and come back home to rot.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I know I'm not ugly, so don't even post that bullshit. It's something else, and ugly guys usually have friends too. I see way too many guys who are absolutely subhuman with girls I'd date in a heartbeat, and they all have huge social circles as well. It's not autism either, even weird autistic guys have friends, usually with other autists.

The loneliness is starting to eat away at me. I'm fucking up my grades, have no motivation, sometimes I go days without eating because I hate myself so much that I don't think I deserve food. I don't even want to be popular or anything, all I need is a couple guys to do shit with occasionally and a girlfriend who I can come home to and cuddle with at night.

Didn't read shit thread kill yourself

 

[Deleted member 3583]

It must be severe if you have absolutely no self awareness
@OP PM me outlining what an average day would entail when you were 6 years old

 

[KEy21]

My diagnoses would be

- Low dopamine and a highly critically inherited worldview that has been exacerbated by forums like this one and ones alike.

You are not desperate enough and your brain does not find it worthy enough to indulge in the actions that constitute being rewarded.

AKA, the rapport building stages of making friends, living in the moment day to day, feeling positive when you accomplish small tasks. There is probably nothing that has given you a good high in a very long time.

 

[Peachy]

You're literally just like me. Also, every time my life begins to straighten itself in the social aspect, I start feeling like shit and I desire to go back to being lonely. Maybe it's avoidant personality disorder, maybe something else.

 

[Avoidant]

My diagnoses would be

- Low dopamine and a highly critically inherited worldview that has been exacerbated by forums like this one and ones alike.

You are not desperate enough and your brain does not find it worthy enough to indulge in the actions that constitute being rewarded.

AKA, the rapport building stages of making friends, living in the moment day to day, feeling positive when you accomplish small tasks. There is probably nothing that has given you a good high in a very long time.

 

[Deleted member 71]

Avoidant and schizo personality. I have this. My life is hell.

 

[gaypharoah]

I'm unironically aspie can relate. Take an ssri op.

 

[Throwaway1028]

Aw man.
Go pay for a therapist.

 

[Deleted member 2486]

i was in same boat op and ritalin helped a lot

 

[EckhartTollemaxx]

Sounds like me but worse. I connect with people very easily on a superficial leevel but find it hard to make actual friends.

 

[ZyzzReincarnate]

Didn't read shit thread kill yourself

in all seriousness u described my life perfectly so i understand u bro

 

[Avoidant]

Avoidant and schizo personality. I have this. My life is hell.

I'm unironically aspie can relate. Take an ssri op.

dont want to fw ssris

Aw man.
Go pay for a therapist.

shekel backed

i was in same boat op and ritalin helped a lot

doctor probably wouldnt write a script for me

in all seriousness u described my life perfectly so i understand u bro

 

[Alt Number 3]

i was in same boat op and ritalin my 99.99% percentile frame, height and psl 5+ face helped a lot

 

[Deleted member 2486]

@Alt Number 3 ritalin is the best looksmaxxing drug

 

[Alt Number 3]

@Alt Number 3 ritalin is the best looksmaxxing drug

no way, i thought its over if you dont get lefort 9 and full facial implants with eppley

 

[BlackPillChad]

@Avoidant

doctor probably wouldnt write a script for me

You don't want to win.

Go try and then come back here and complain if the doctor doesn't do it. Or go buy some online

 

[Deleted member 2486]

 

[Avoidant]

 

[Deleted member 2486]

btw im srs dude. u want to find out how to get it. it can change your life

 

[CupOfCoffee]

Also, every time my life begins to straighten itself in the social aspect, I start feeling like shit and I desire to go back to being lonely. Maybe it's avoidant personality disorder, maybe something else.

Holy shit you just described me in a nutshell. Wtf is wrong with us

 

[Avoidant]

@Avoidant



You don't want to win.

Go try and then come back here and complain if the doctor doesn't do it. Or go buy some online

ritalin isn't going to give me a gf

 

[KEy21]

@Alt Number 3 ritalin is the best looksmaxxing drug

How long does Ritalin last for you? Can you describe the changes?

In my experience, Ritalin only lasts a couple hours at most.

 

[Deleted member 2486]

How long does Ritalin last for you? Can you describe the changes?

In my experience, Ritalin only lasts a couple hours at most.

i take 20mg twice daily it lasts 3-4 hrs and it makes me productive. i used to spend every single waking minute procrasinating now i get 6-8 hrs where i just get shit done. i have/had severe adhd, depression. i was obese with no friends and serious anxiety

i can very mildly feel the switch, but the effects are that im motivated to do things and feel good when I get things done which makes me want to do things more. now that ive been taking it for a long while its hard to "notice" but i can definitely notice when i dont take it cuz i go back to how i was for 10+ years

it made me motivate to lose weight, to gymcel, to join uni, to learn how to talk to girls, to stand up against my parents and some other things, basically start my life

 

[Mr_Norwood]

You might naturally be a loner like me...

I've always enjoyed my own company more than having friends for friends sake...

I have a few friends and one very close friend

 

[Avoidant]

You might naturally be a loner like me...

I've always enjoyed my own company more than having friends for friends sake...

I have a few friends and one very close friend

Maybe. It still feels wrong though, especially since I really want a gf

 

[Enlil]

i was in same boat op and ritalin helped a lot

@Ritalincel

 

[KEy21]

i take 20mg twice daily it lasts 3-4 hrs and it makes me productive. i used to spend every single waking minute procrasinating now i get 6-8 hrs where i just get shit done. i have/had severe adhd, depression. i was obese with no friends and serious anxiety

i can very mildly feel the switch, but the effects are that im motivated to do things and feel good when I get things done which makes me want to do things more. now that ive been taking it for a long while its hard to "notice" but i can definitely notice when i dont take it cuz i go back to how i was for 10+ years

it made me motivate to lose weight, to gymcel, to join uni, to learn how to talk to girls, to stand up against my parents and some other things, basically start my life

That’s great to hear. Sounds like a case of naturally low dopamine as well, probably exacerbated by hedonistic modern day culture.

What people don’t understand is that people who are naturally deficient, cannot just change their lifestyle choices and be healed - like someone who has naturally normal levels but nuked them with hedonistic, self pleasure seeking lifestyle choices.

Even if they do everything perfect, the levels are still naturally deficient and some form of medication is necessary.

This is also why I laugh when people say ADHD doesn’t exist. There are over 30,000 clinical and peer reviewed papers on it. I guess they must have started reading 10 years ago at around 3-4 years old and finally came to this genius conclusion jfl.

 

[Deleted member 2486]

That’s great to hear. Sounds like a case of naturally low dopamine as well, probably exacerbated by hedonistic modern day culture.

What people don’t understand is that people who are naturally deficient, cannot just change their lifestyle choices and be healed - like someone who has naturally normal levels but nuked them with hedonistic, self pleasure seeking lifestyle choices.

Even if they do everything perfect, the levels are still naturally deficient and some form of medication is necessary.

This is also why I laugh when people say ADHD doesn’t exist. There are over 30,000 clinical and peer reviewed papers on it. I guess they must have started reading 10 years ago at around 3-4 years old and finally came to this genius conclusion jfl.

Yeah. I was always like this, so it's not like i've just suddenly made it up for myself as some self-diagnosed people who just wanna get stims prescribed. The only thing ever satisfying enough were video games, I remember my thoughts from when i was young and I literally didn't understand why people go out to socialise. I just didn't understand why they do a lot of things cause it felt extremely "boring" to me. Now it all makes a lot of sense.

 

[IWantToMax]

There is no reason I should have the lifestyle that I do now. Hardly any friends (absolutely 0 in college), don't go out (never get invited), don't have a girlfriend, I just go to school and come back home to rot.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I know I'm not ugly, so don't even post that bullshit. It's something else, and ugly guys usually have friends too. I see way too many guys who are absolutely subhuman with girls I'd date in a heartbeat, and they all have huge social circles as well. It's not autism either, even weird autistic guys have friends, usually with other autists.

The loneliness is starting to eat away at me. I'm fucking up my grades, have no motivation, sometimes I go days without eating because I hate myself so much that I don't think I deserve food. I don't even want to be popular or anything, all I need is a couple guys to do shit with occasionally and a girlfriend who I can come home to and cuddle with at night.

Didn't read shit thread kill yourself

We are not NT, we're kind of boring and weird.
I luckily can get more NT if I'm in the right mood, so I still have some friends and hangout with them sometimes, but I get your struggle, I find it really hard to open up to people if I'm not drunk or something

 

[Deleted member 2227]

Ins't you that made a Thread trying to roast me? I always know that you are pathetic.

 

[autistic_tendencies]

Are you possibly addicted to porn? Your dopamine receptors could be fried

 

[Avoidant]

Ins't you that made a Thread trying to roast me? I always know that you are pathetic.

LMFAO DONT PRETEND YOU CANT RELATE TO THIS YOU MASSIVE COCKSUCKER

BRUTAL REMINDER THAT YOU POST COLLEGE LENGTH THESIS STATEMENTS ABOUT LOOKS THEORY (INCLUDING PICTURES) ON AN OBSCURE INCEL FORUM AND HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH SOCIALLY OUTCASTED LOSERS LIKE RICHARD RAMIREZ.

IF THAT DOESN'T SCREAM "I'M AN ENORMOUS QUEER" THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT DOES.

 

[Deleted member 2227]

LMFAO DONT PRETEND YOU CANT RELATE TO THIS YOU MASSIVE COCKSUCKER

BRUTAL REMINDER THAT YOU POST COLLEGE LENGTH THESIS STATEMENTS ABOUT LOOKS THEORY (INCLUDING PICTURES) ON AN OBSCURE INCEL FORUM AND HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH SOCIALLY OUTCASTED LOSERS LIKE RICHARD RAMIREZ.

IF THAT DOESN'T SCREAM "I'M AN ENORMOUS QUEER" THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT DOES.

I really can't relate with nothing, being in this forum don't mean being like you.

 

[wristcel]

I'm unironically aspie can relate. Take an ssri op.

i was in same boat op and ritalin helped a lot

SSRI vs ADHD meds? They seem so different, but I often see different people recommend one of the two for things like anxitty/high inhibition/social maxxing etc

 

[Deleted member 3299]

I have girlfriend, friends and I still rage everyday and want to go on crime spree and end my life

 

[6'4 looksmaxxxer]

Beside a couple of my classmates who are good friends i lost all my "friends" some of them are studying abroad and one of them is a faggot who ghosted me. In college i feel ok coz i have a couple of good nigs there but when i go hole i go absolutely nowhere beside the gym. It's kinda starting to affect me negatively ngl and i stopped interacting with women waiting till i fully ascend body wise to get what i want. But i agree shit lifestyle it takes a toll on you after a while.

 

[Deleted member 3328]

we can be friends op

 

[Roping Subhuman]

I have girlfriend, friends and I still rage everyday and want to go on crime spree and end my life

You're mentally ill my son.

 

[wellthatsucks]

What was your childhood like?

Try to remember the trigger that toggled your complete avoidance of people

 

[Deleted member 3299]

You're mentally ill my son.

Indeed. I have fucked up my brain for life from all the degenerate porn and gore I watched growing up

 

[Deleted member 3328]

Beside a couple of my classmates who are good friends i lost all my "friends" some of them are studying abroad and one of them is a faggot who ghosted me. In college i feel ok coz i have a couple of good nigs there but when i go hole i go absolutely nowhere beside the gym. It's kinda starting to affect me negatively ngl and i stopped interacting with women waiting till i fully ascend body wise to get what i want. But i agree shit lifestyle it takes a toll on you after a while.

I don't know if I have any real friends tbh
before getting blackpilled I had lots of "friends"
I just keep them around to have a social circle so I don't look like an aspie outcast
JFL I will never have a real friend now that I got blackpilled

 

[bassfreak]

NTmaxxing and Lowinhibmaxxing is the only way bro

 

[Deleted member 773]

Sounds like a collagen issue

 

[6'4 looksmaxxxer]

I don't know if I have any real friends tbh
before getting blackpilled I had lots of "friends"
I just keep them around to have a social circle so I don't look like an aspie outcast
JFL I will never have a real friend now that I got blackpilled

Friendship is a bluepilled concept even though i kinda feel good in this forum and i consider some users good nigs like u per example buddy boyo but yeah i need a new "social circle" had this fake one since i was a teenager now i lost it i need some "friends"

Sounds like a collagen issue

It's all minoxidil's fault

 

[Roping Subhuman]

Indeed. I have fucked up my brain for life from all the degenerate porn and gore I watched growing up

Porn, Gore, and other degenerate shit during adolescence indeed destroys and warps ones perception of life.

 

[Deleted member 3328]

Friendship is a bluepilled concept even though i kinda feel good in this forum and i consider some users good nigs like u per example buddy boyo but yeah i need a new "social circle" had this fake one since i was a teenager now i lost it i need some "friends"

thank you buddy boyo bro

they are just fake fucks tbh
randomly talking shit behind my back and ghosting sometimes
I just don't wanna eat and sit alone in school because that would destroy me even more I think
So I stick around them
I like them only when we are all drunk together tbh

 

[wristcel]

NTmaxxing and Lowinhibmaxxing is the only way bro

not sure it's possible, tbh

 

[bassfreak]

not sure it's possible, tbh

Lowinhibmaxxing is very possible
NTmaxxing is harder but not impossible (if u are not diagonsed in any shit like asperger or autism)

 

[wristcel]

Lowinhibmaxxing is very possible
NTmaxxing is harder but not impossible (if u are not diagonsed in any shit like asperger or autism)

what's your low inhibition stack?

 

[bassfreak]

what's your low inhibition stack?

Stop overthinking and just social exposure
Eventually try to get a little drunk and go to the club , next time try to remember that feeling of "no anxiety" when u was drunk